I know its late. I wanted to get in a blog today but the day got away from me. I really want to just turn in from a long day that ended in a great birthday celebration dinner with a friend. The truth is I am not sure how well I will sleep if I don't blog about today.
Today was the day we were going to get a ultrasound to determine the sex of the baby. We headed out to Costa Mesa and was driving on the 5FWY south carpool to get the 55 south. For a mile or two if you are not familiar, you are on fwy overpass that is above the 55. I happened to glance on the shoulder of the opposing traffic to notice a motorcycle parked up against the shoulder. Didn't appear to look like it had been in an accident. I started to formulate why someone would leave it there and drew my own conclusions.
Excited on the way back from the ultrasound place we got back on the 5 North carpool lane and as we were to go on the overpass there was CHP blocking it. It forced us to go straight on the 55... Sal said I wonder if they are trying to see where the driver of that motorcycle is. I said yeah I thought it was kinda weird, that the bike was there.
No more than a minute later my heart dropped as I glanced over to the opposing side of the FWY. There were cops, cal trans workers and a corner standing over what appeared to be a body. "OH my Lord, Oh my Lord" I cried out.. " He jumped, He jumped" My eyes immediately filled up with tears and my heart started to ache. It appeared that this man must just jumped right before we passed his motorcycle.
I cant imagine what someone must be thinking to jump from the overpass onto oncoming traffic. What was this man thinking as he drove, parked his bike and got on the ledge to jump? He took his life because he saw no hope. Did anyone? I wondered if this man had family, friends? Did they know that this man was hurting and walking around dead? How come they didn't intervene or perhaps he didn't let anyone into his world.
I could not stop thinking about this man. I couldn't imagine the call his mom was about to get that her child is no longer alive. My excitement turned to sadness. As I was celebrating life, one was lost. What happens to a person that feels the only way is to take their own life? I don't know, I am not sure anyone on the outside will ever know. People think suicide is selfish, today I didn't feel that for this man. My heart ached for this man who lost hope, who lost the will to live.
He was someone's son, he was the Lords son. I pray for his family, his friends and others that are like this man. I pray for the hope that Jesus gave me in some of my darkest days. I pray peace in their lives. Please help me in praying for these people.
Remembering tonight how fragile life can be
mon
Friday, May 28, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Hot Dog, Pork n Beans and A glass of Kool Aid
Today I poured myself some Kool-Aid and as it went down the pipes I closed my eyes and remember the summer days as a kid. My Tia used to watch my siblings and I during the summers. I remember having a hot dog, pork n beans and a nice glass of kool aid for lunch everyday, every summer till we were old enough to stay on our own.
Those were the summers we would do crafts, run through the sprinklers when we were to lazy to get out the slip n slide. We would be outside for hours. We would smell like sweaty puppies and the grass stains were as green as could be on the knees. Occasionally at a local school they would give out free lunch, and those were the only days we got a break from the hot dogs.
I cant ever remember ever getting tired of eating that same lunch, because back then nothing matter. Four thirty would roll around and like clock work my mom would come to pick us up. It took her about an hour usually to round us up and persuade us to get in the car.
My Tia was a special lady. She was always sick with diabetes and there were times when we thought we would lose her. She made our days spacial and fun. We would do talent shows, make homemade kites, walk to the park for picnics ( yup the same hot dogs). She always had a camera to, snapping shots as we ran around the yard. We loss my aunt about six months ago. Her diabetes finally took her out. Kool Aid will always remind me of her. I thank God that we had those special summers. I learned alot from her, she taught us kids how to be creative and never let us just sit in front of a t.v.
Who knew that after many years a hot dog, pork n beans and a glass of kool aid could still bring joy to my heart!
Those were the summers we would do crafts, run through the sprinklers when we were to lazy to get out the slip n slide. We would be outside for hours. We would smell like sweaty puppies and the grass stains were as green as could be on the knees. Occasionally at a local school they would give out free lunch, and those were the only days we got a break from the hot dogs.
I cant ever remember ever getting tired of eating that same lunch, because back then nothing matter. Four thirty would roll around and like clock work my mom would come to pick us up. It took her about an hour usually to round us up and persuade us to get in the car.
My Tia was a special lady. She was always sick with diabetes and there were times when we thought we would lose her. She made our days spacial and fun. We would do talent shows, make homemade kites, walk to the park for picnics ( yup the same hot dogs). She always had a camera to, snapping shots as we ran around the yard. We loss my aunt about six months ago. Her diabetes finally took her out. Kool Aid will always remind me of her. I thank God that we had those special summers. I learned alot from her, she taught us kids how to be creative and never let us just sit in front of a t.v.
Who knew that after many years a hot dog, pork n beans and a glass of kool aid could still bring joy to my heart!
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Peace not understanding!
I have a friend that is waiting for probably one of the most important things in her life to happen. It has been many, many years of waiting. In less then 2 days she will find out how the Lords Will will unfold. As I prayed for her yesterday, I couldn't imagine being in her shoes.
I really had a hard time sleeping because I have been on this journey with her and I know her desires. With faith as I prayed. I prayed that should it not happen the way we desire, that she would have understanding. Right after I prayed that something hit me and I said, " no Lord I pray for peace and not understanding."
Now whenever I start a new book it appears that what I read just ends up on here. As you know "Big God" is the new book I started. Pastor Britt talks about the time when he found out that his little girl had cancer, and how he prayed. He said that he prayed for peace and not understanding because we sometimes will never understand. It is so true! I meditated on that for a few minutes.
Our God is big and we are really little. Our little minds will never comprehend some of the things that happen in this world. Instead of racking our brains trying, it is better that we pray for the peace. It is the peace that God can give that will help us not to ask the "why" questions. Its the peace in God that instead of saying "why God" we say "Ok God". Is it easy, HECK no but I always say "whats the alternative?"
I thought of Philippians 4:4-7 some of my favorite scriptures. I have been rambling it off for years in prayer, in situation and to people. I said it today and saw verse 7 differently. And after many years of quoting this memorized Scripture I finally got it! Yup I finally felt in my heart what it really meant!
"and the peace of God which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."
Let us stop praying for understanding and pray for peace. Please pray for my friend, Lord knows her name and situation. I covet your prayers. I hope to bring you back a Praise report when this is all over, I promise!
In His love,
Mon
I really had a hard time sleeping because I have been on this journey with her and I know her desires. With faith as I prayed. I prayed that should it not happen the way we desire, that she would have understanding. Right after I prayed that something hit me and I said, " no Lord I pray for peace and not understanding."
Now whenever I start a new book it appears that what I read just ends up on here. As you know "Big God" is the new book I started. Pastor Britt talks about the time when he found out that his little girl had cancer, and how he prayed. He said that he prayed for peace and not understanding because we sometimes will never understand. It is so true! I meditated on that for a few minutes.
Our God is big and we are really little. Our little minds will never comprehend some of the things that happen in this world. Instead of racking our brains trying, it is better that we pray for the peace. It is the peace that God can give that will help us not to ask the "why" questions. Its the peace in God that instead of saying "why God" we say "Ok God". Is it easy, HECK no but I always say "whats the alternative?"
I thought of Philippians 4:4-7 some of my favorite scriptures. I have been rambling it off for years in prayer, in situation and to people. I said it today and saw verse 7 differently. And after many years of quoting this memorized Scripture I finally got it! Yup I finally felt in my heart what it really meant!
"and the peace of God which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."
Let us stop praying for understanding and pray for peace. Please pray for my friend, Lord knows her name and situation. I covet your prayers. I hope to bring you back a Praise report when this is all over, I promise!
In His love,
Mon
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Dance in the rain
There is something about the a rainy day that can really make you feel like a drag and lazy. So I sat here looking on the Internet trying to find bedding for Asher's new bed. Then I started to think of all the other things that I needed to do or buy. Oh no here it goes zero to stress in 1.5 seconds.
As Pandora radio played, I surfed the net, Noah playing with his train. A song came on and sparked excitement from him. He came up to me and said "mommy dance" and grabbed my hand. I got up and we danced around the loft singing...
(Chris Tomlin's song entitled "Everything")
"With rain, with sun
With much, with less
With joy, with pain
With life, with death
The only thing that satisfy comes from you,
they come from you
Everything that's beautiful
Everything that's wonderful
Every perfect gift comes from you
Your grace, your heart
Your voice, your touch
Your word, your peace
Your hope, your love"
I could go on singing the song. As we danced together holding hands singing at the top of our lungs laughing at how silly we were, my mood changed. This song reminded me that in everything perfect or not, everything comes from God.
So appropriate that the song starts off with "with rain." It maybe raining in your life today, and perhaps you don't see a rainbow just yet. We have to remember after the rain comes the rainbow and that, my friends is what is beautiful.
You not feeling so well, get up and dance in the rain. I tell you it really does make a difference. As I danced with my beautiful son, and think about the perfect one forming in my belly, and my wonderful husband. I forgot about everything but what was perfect.... My life! Am I perfect? No way! Is what I do perfect? No way!
My life is perfect but because no matter what is in it, good or bad it comes from..
"The Father of Lights
It comes from the Giver of Life
It comes from the Heavens above
It comes straight from my heart, To the people I love"
That is the last chorus from the song! I pray for the Son to come out to you on this rainy day!
Much Love for you~
Mon
Monday, May 17, 2010
"Dont wait, till you need it"
How is your spirit? Is it enough to carry you through sickness?
I started to read Pastor Britt Merricks "Big God" last night and it really spoke to my heart. He explains that when we are hit with something that is so heavy like "hearing your child has cancer," we immediately should turn to Jesus.
He explains that when we have the word in us. When we are hit hard with something, that is immediately were we go. We don't need to run to the bible for verses or wait for those to give us the verses. He says this:
" By being in the word of God and knowing the stories when famine of hard times come, we have the food that will sustain us."
Speaking of a scripture (psalm 91:3-4) that came to his mind while praying he says this:
" Because we have read the Word of God, we know we could hide under the wings of God. We knew we could cling to the person of Jesus. We understood God's character and knew that His faithfulness would be a shield for us. In His word that nourished us, like good food when your body is sick."
I thought about this statement for a minute and it reminded me of our immune systems. When we are born they are very weak and over time we take shots, and as we grow we build it up to fight off disease and germs. When we get a flu generally it isn't enough to kill us, we take some meds and are as good as new.
How is your spiritual immunity system? Are you building it up daily in the Word? So that when spiritual attacks, physical illness attacks its enough to get you through? Or will it kill you spiritually so to speak?
Britt says not to wait till you need it! I agree in shame, that we should not wait till something happens to be in the Word of God. Start today and build up your immunity so that when you are attack your body automatically fights it and your mind immediately goes to Jesus!
Proverbs 18: 14 says:
The spirit of man will sustain him in sickness, But who can bear a broken spirit?
I started to read Pastor Britt Merricks "Big God" last night and it really spoke to my heart. He explains that when we are hit with something that is so heavy like "hearing your child has cancer," we immediately should turn to Jesus.
He explains that when we have the word in us. When we are hit hard with something, that is immediately were we go. We don't need to run to the bible for verses or wait for those to give us the verses. He says this:
" By being in the word of God and knowing the stories when famine of hard times come, we have the food that will sustain us."
Speaking of a scripture (psalm 91:3-4) that came to his mind while praying he says this:
" Because we have read the Word of God, we know we could hide under the wings of God. We knew we could cling to the person of Jesus. We understood God's character and knew that His faithfulness would be a shield for us. In His word that nourished us, like good food when your body is sick."
I thought about this statement for a minute and it reminded me of our immune systems. When we are born they are very weak and over time we take shots, and as we grow we build it up to fight off disease and germs. When we get a flu generally it isn't enough to kill us, we take some meds and are as good as new.
How is your spiritual immunity system? Are you building it up daily in the Word? So that when spiritual attacks, physical illness attacks its enough to get you through? Or will it kill you spiritually so to speak?
Britt says not to wait till you need it! I agree in shame, that we should not wait till something happens to be in the Word of God. Start today and build up your immunity so that when you are attack your body automatically fights it and your mind immediately goes to Jesus!
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
I shall not be moved!
Afternoon my peeps! How are you doing on this fine windy day! Sneezing, blowing and runny? Yup my nose to!!!!!!!!
So yesterday I sat there staring at my chili Relleno with rice and beans and my chips.. What don't hate, you know that sounds so good to you right now! It was then that I realized that once again I failed!!!! Yup not because I should have ordered the taco's either fail, I am talking something more serious..
See when I started FF & F For real, it was in the quest that perfect "fuel" produced out of a perfect balance of Faith, Food and Fitness. So today I find myself not working out, When able to keep the food down it isn't the most healthiest and my faith is wavering to be honest. So what happen? What happen when I started this blog back in February till now? My circumstances changed.
And in true fashion I allowed my circumstances to change me instead of me changing my perception of the circumstances. I think that is why we fail, and I know that is why I fail. I do not allow good habits to form to become second nature and because it is not a part of me it doesn't last. Make sense?
Life could be easier if circumstances never changed, so I think. I knew this godly women, there was always a sense of peace about her. She was always smiling and very happy and spirit filled for sure. I remember one day someone told me that she had found out her daughter was sick and she had lost her job. I would have never knew had I not heard about it. Although this ladies circumstance changed she continued to live life the same because she had that true faith and peace.
She didn't allow her circumstances to change her attitude and defeat her. So I am going to real, I understand that only God can change certain situations. The thing that we can change is how we handle them and how we see them. When we are truly walking with the Lord and have peace in Him then NOTHING shall move us!
Now I can blame the morning sickness for working out.. I can but there is no excuse for my lack of faith during this season. I can still be in charge of what I put into my body. I can still be in the pursuit of FFF just in a different way now. Not only for me but for the one growing in me!
What about you? Do you choke up when circumstances change? Or is who you are strong enough to carry you through your circumstances? Or do you embrace it and tackle it head on like David did against the philistine giant? I pray we don't, I pray that once we make that commitment we don't just find peace through the still waters, but when the waves come in that we will not be moved!
Looking to God to be the Perfector of my FFF!
Mon
So yesterday I sat there staring at my chili Relleno with rice and beans and my chips.. What don't hate, you know that sounds so good to you right now! It was then that I realized that once again I failed!!!! Yup not because I should have ordered the taco's either fail, I am talking something more serious..
See when I started FF & F For real, it was in the quest that perfect "fuel" produced out of a perfect balance of Faith, Food and Fitness. So today I find myself not working out, When able to keep the food down it isn't the most healthiest and my faith is wavering to be honest. So what happen? What happen when I started this blog back in February till now? My circumstances changed.
And in true fashion I allowed my circumstances to change me instead of me changing my perception of the circumstances. I think that is why we fail, and I know that is why I fail. I do not allow good habits to form to become second nature and because it is not a part of me it doesn't last. Make sense?
Life could be easier if circumstances never changed, so I think. I knew this godly women, there was always a sense of peace about her. She was always smiling and very happy and spirit filled for sure. I remember one day someone told me that she had found out her daughter was sick and she had lost her job. I would have never knew had I not heard about it. Although this ladies circumstance changed she continued to live life the same because she had that true faith and peace.
She didn't allow her circumstances to change her attitude and defeat her. So I am going to real, I understand that only God can change certain situations. The thing that we can change is how we handle them and how we see them. When we are truly walking with the Lord and have peace in Him then NOTHING shall move us!
Now I can blame the morning sickness for working out.. I can but there is no excuse for my lack of faith during this season. I can still be in charge of what I put into my body. I can still be in the pursuit of FFF just in a different way now. Not only for me but for the one growing in me!
What about you? Do you choke up when circumstances change? Or is who you are strong enough to carry you through your circumstances? Or do you embrace it and tackle it head on like David did against the philistine giant? I pray we don't, I pray that once we make that commitment we don't just find peace through the still waters, but when the waves come in that we will not be moved!
Looking to God to be the Perfector of my FFF!
Mon
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Celebrating Mothers Day & Cancer
I never imagined how hard the job of being a mom could be.. When you are growing up you see your mom and others and think I can totally do that and I just wont do that. When I became a mom I realized a few things.. 1. How foolish to think that it was an easy job anyone can do.. 2. How much faith I really didn't have. As tough as it is to be a mom, keeping up with the demands sometimes some moms are demanded to do more, be more and believe more.
Being sick with morning(aka.. all day) sickness for the last three months has really open my eyes.. There is nothing worse than physical illness when trying to raise a child and take care of a family. And yet there are many women out there that have fought the odds or are trying. There are some that lost the fight in this life but gained eternity. Today I want to talk about them.. I celebrate these extraordinary women who have more faith than me, more strength than me and more fight than I have. These women have battled, are battling or lost their life's to cancer....
My Mom,I remember the day my mom came home and told me she had breast cancer. Not knowing how bad, what stage or what the future hold I remember her telling me this.. "She said God is going to do a work, no matter what happens I am ok, and I am going to fight and I will use it later for the Lord." My moms cancer wasn't as bad, she went through radiation and a surgery, continuing to work and take care of the family. I never saw her pain, never saw her having pity but only saw her strength and ability to trust in the Lord during this time. My mom beat cancer and has now been in remission for about 8 years now.. My mom taught me how to trust in the Lord and she is a extraordinary woman.
Denise Johnson-Scott- is the kinda women that you wanted your meetings, have at your parties, at your pot lucks and just around in general. I became a new manger and had the privileged to sit next to her. She brought life to the party and there was always a laugh when Denise was around. When she was diagnosed with stage four cancer, It was my hope that the laughter she created was enough to carry her through. At the time she was diagnosed she had four kids ages 1, 4,6 & 12 and a busy mom who went between work, PTA and sporting events. She overcame many surgery's, chemo that took all her hair and many complications, radiation and spent five months at home unable to eat and needed a nurse to feed her. Denise didn't quit she fought the good fight. She fought the battle for her and her family. Today Denise is cancer free and has been for 6 years. Still has some post cancer complications but does not stop her from, traveling all over the states for her kids, baseball, basketball, football, cheer, acting classes and everything in between. Denise taught me how to fight through the pain and to always laugh, she is a extraordinary woman.
Brenda was a women at church that I got to meet only months before she passed away. She had many tumors in her head and when diagnosed her daughter was only one years old. The doctors gave her only a year. She was a woman of much faith and fought to the very end. When I saw her she always looked as though she had peace. I couldn't understand why she did. I later found out that she asked God to give her two more years with her daughter when she found out about the tumors. She ended up living six.. She had peace because the Lord gave her more than she asked. She had hope that one day she could actually be healed until the day she died. In her last breathe she thanked God for the extra time. Brenda taught me how to have hope, and to be thankful for every new day because it is extra time, she is a extraordinary woman.
Grandma Gloria was in remission for many years. Grandma Gloria is sals grandma, on his moms side. She had lymphoma and it came back after many years. In her illness she cared for her husband, sal's grandpa who had a bad heart. She always put her husbands health first and was selfless. She lost her battle about 4 years ago and was healed eternally. Grandma Gloria taught me how to be unselfish and she is a extraordinary woman.
Lucy, I saw Lucy today in church.. She stood there in her cap without hair and a clearing up infection on her face due to chemo. Seeing her at church today was awesome since a week ago she was in the hospital with blog clots in her lungs and having a hard time breathing. Lucy has cancer, she has cancer in her brain, lung and on her hip. She is the head of her home. She is a good friend of mines mom. In the middle of her cancer fight she continues to support her daughters still putting their needs above hers. She is in the battle of her life, doctors only gave her a few years. She has faith and today it was good seeing her at church praising the Lord. Please pray for her, she has had a long road but still has miles ahead of her. Lucy has taught me to how praise the Lord during the storm, and she is a extraordinary woman.
Deborah Johnson Deborah hasn't battled cancer but she has been through her share of battling and so I celebrate her to. She is Denise's mom, losing her son Duane a few years prior to Denise's diagnosis. Still grieving she was left to take care of her daughter and her family. She is truly the foundation to her family. She was a nurse, a mom, a grandma, a taxi and everything else you can imagine when Denise was sick. To day you can find her traveling from San Diego to Orange County and well beyond the borders to see her grandkids. She is there supporting sports events, plays and her husband who is a NFL coach. She is a lady that retired for the airlines only to accept the job a full time working grandma. Deborah has taught me how to be strong and be that backbone for your family during difficult times, she is a extraordinary women.
I have had the privilege to know and be a small part in some of these ladies lives. It is because of women like them that I have hope. I have hope in the Lord that one day there will be a cure. I celebrate their lives, the ones that are here and the ones that are with the Lord. I have a new compassion for them and how they can have the ability to maintain a family and go through their illness. It blows my mind, I know that in a month or so my season shall pass but for some it will not. These women did not let the cancer define them and that is what I love!
Please continue for those that are in remission and battling because one day it can come back. Cancer is real but so is God and with Him all things are possible...
Happy Mothers Day!
Mon
Being sick with morning(aka.. all day) sickness for the last three months has really open my eyes.. There is nothing worse than physical illness when trying to raise a child and take care of a family. And yet there are many women out there that have fought the odds or are trying. There are some that lost the fight in this life but gained eternity. Today I want to talk about them.. I celebrate these extraordinary women who have more faith than me, more strength than me and more fight than I have. These women have battled, are battling or lost their life's to cancer....
My Mom,I remember the day my mom came home and told me she had breast cancer. Not knowing how bad, what stage or what the future hold I remember her telling me this.. "She said God is going to do a work, no matter what happens I am ok, and I am going to fight and I will use it later for the Lord." My moms cancer wasn't as bad, she went through radiation and a surgery, continuing to work and take care of the family. I never saw her pain, never saw her having pity but only saw her strength and ability to trust in the Lord during this time. My mom beat cancer and has now been in remission for about 8 years now.. My mom taught me how to trust in the Lord and she is a extraordinary woman.
Denise Johnson-Scott- is the kinda women that you wanted your meetings, have at your parties, at your pot lucks and just around in general. I became a new manger and had the privileged to sit next to her. She brought life to the party and there was always a laugh when Denise was around. When she was diagnosed with stage four cancer, It was my hope that the laughter she created was enough to carry her through. At the time she was diagnosed she had four kids ages 1, 4,6 & 12 and a busy mom who went between work, PTA and sporting events. She overcame many surgery's, chemo that took all her hair and many complications, radiation and spent five months at home unable to eat and needed a nurse to feed her. Denise didn't quit she fought the good fight. She fought the battle for her and her family. Today Denise is cancer free and has been for 6 years. Still has some post cancer complications but does not stop her from, traveling all over the states for her kids, baseball, basketball, football, cheer, acting classes and everything in between. Denise taught me how to fight through the pain and to always laugh, she is a extraordinary woman.
Brenda was a women at church that I got to meet only months before she passed away. She had many tumors in her head and when diagnosed her daughter was only one years old. The doctors gave her only a year. She was a woman of much faith and fought to the very end. When I saw her she always looked as though she had peace. I couldn't understand why she did. I later found out that she asked God to give her two more years with her daughter when she found out about the tumors. She ended up living six.. She had peace because the Lord gave her more than she asked. She had hope that one day she could actually be healed until the day she died. In her last breathe she thanked God for the extra time. Brenda taught me how to have hope, and to be thankful for every new day because it is extra time, she is a extraordinary woman.
Grandma Gloria was in remission for many years. Grandma Gloria is sals grandma, on his moms side. She had lymphoma and it came back after many years. In her illness she cared for her husband, sal's grandpa who had a bad heart. She always put her husbands health first and was selfless. She lost her battle about 4 years ago and was healed eternally. Grandma Gloria taught me how to be unselfish and she is a extraordinary woman.
Lucy, I saw Lucy today in church.. She stood there in her cap without hair and a clearing up infection on her face due to chemo. Seeing her at church today was awesome since a week ago she was in the hospital with blog clots in her lungs and having a hard time breathing. Lucy has cancer, she has cancer in her brain, lung and on her hip. She is the head of her home. She is a good friend of mines mom. In the middle of her cancer fight she continues to support her daughters still putting their needs above hers. She is in the battle of her life, doctors only gave her a few years. She has faith and today it was good seeing her at church praising the Lord. Please pray for her, she has had a long road but still has miles ahead of her. Lucy has taught me to how praise the Lord during the storm, and she is a extraordinary woman.
Deborah Johnson Deborah hasn't battled cancer but she has been through her share of battling and so I celebrate her to. She is Denise's mom, losing her son Duane a few years prior to Denise's diagnosis. Still grieving she was left to take care of her daughter and her family. She is truly the foundation to her family. She was a nurse, a mom, a grandma, a taxi and everything else you can imagine when Denise was sick. To day you can find her traveling from San Diego to Orange County and well beyond the borders to see her grandkids. She is there supporting sports events, plays and her husband who is a NFL coach. She is a lady that retired for the airlines only to accept the job a full time working grandma. Deborah has taught me how to be strong and be that backbone for your family during difficult times, she is a extraordinary women.
I have had the privilege to know and be a small part in some of these ladies lives. It is because of women like them that I have hope. I have hope in the Lord that one day there will be a cure. I celebrate their lives, the ones that are here and the ones that are with the Lord. I have a new compassion for them and how they can have the ability to maintain a family and go through their illness. It blows my mind, I know that in a month or so my season shall pass but for some it will not. These women did not let the cancer define them and that is what I love!
Please continue for those that are in remission and battling because one day it can come back. Cancer is real but so is God and with Him all things are possible...
Happy Mothers Day!
Mon
Friday, May 7, 2010
Is He calling?
Have you ever had a time when God is calling you to do something and you can think of every reason why you shouldn't. Perhaps it is something that is going to take more faith than you have, or more time than you think you have to give. You start to formulate in your small mind of the what if's? Or this can be really difficult or I'm not equipped or I cant, I don't want... and the list goes on and on...
Yeah well that is me.. And perhaps it is also you.. Sometimes we forget how big God really is. We cannot comprehend the crazy work He can do in us.. Why? Because we sometimes don't believe in ourselves.. We see the mistakes, we see the past and we have no idea what is in the future.
God knows and there is no doubt that if He is calling you to do something it is for His purpose but it is for OUR lesson... If you think about it, God is God... He really doesn't need us for much.. He can accomplish pretty much anything however He wants us to live that abundant life.. He wants to stretch us and form us so that we can celebrate the success with Him.
There is a saying " The will of God will never lead you where the Grace of God cannot keep you." If we really embrace that, then when He calls we have no problem going or doing what He is asking us to do. He knows what we are capable of.. We fail because we think we know what we are capable of, and the truth is we really don't. There have been times in my life where I think how in the world did I make it through that? Or Lord how did that happen that way?
If we believed in ourselves the way God does, we would accomplish more, love more and be more. I pray that what ever it is in your life God is calling you, weather it be big or small that you pray for God to see yourself the way He does. God doesn't make mistakes so if He is tugging or calling you, know He also comes with a plan....
I pray for you and ask you pray for me as I take this new challenge that I am not ready to share just yet.. I pray in His timing I will..
Have a great weekend, love you all!
Mon
Yeah well that is me.. And perhaps it is also you.. Sometimes we forget how big God really is. We cannot comprehend the crazy work He can do in us.. Why? Because we sometimes don't believe in ourselves.. We see the mistakes, we see the past and we have no idea what is in the future.
God knows and there is no doubt that if He is calling you to do something it is for His purpose but it is for OUR lesson... If you think about it, God is God... He really doesn't need us for much.. He can accomplish pretty much anything however He wants us to live that abundant life.. He wants to stretch us and form us so that we can celebrate the success with Him.
There is a saying " The will of God will never lead you where the Grace of God cannot keep you." If we really embrace that, then when He calls we have no problem going or doing what He is asking us to do. He knows what we are capable of.. We fail because we think we know what we are capable of, and the truth is we really don't. There have been times in my life where I think how in the world did I make it through that? Or Lord how did that happen that way?
If we believed in ourselves the way God does, we would accomplish more, love more and be more. I pray that what ever it is in your life God is calling you, weather it be big or small that you pray for God to see yourself the way He does. God doesn't make mistakes so if He is tugging or calling you, know He also comes with a plan....
I pray for you and ask you pray for me as I take this new challenge that I am not ready to share just yet.. I pray in His timing I will..
Have a great weekend, love you all!
Mon
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Dare to be different!
As he walked through the restaurant everyone turned their heads and gasp.. "how cute" "awww" I heard as I walked holding Noahs hand. There he stood not much over three feet... he was wearing high water fireman pants because he insisted on wearing his suspenders... His shirt that one time was white was not so much.. His fire hat was backwards and a little off to the side. He also made sure that before we left he was wearing his badge.
Back up a half hour, I pleaded with him to change. We were meeting grandma and uncle for lunch. He looked at me and with little tears and said " no change".. Perhaps I blamed it on time or maybe be deep down pass the embarrassment I wanted him to have his way this time. What was it to hurt to let him sport his costume way past October.
I sat and watched him eat and he had no clue that he looked different. He was just happy that he was wearing what he loved and didn't mind the attention. After feeling alil ashamed that I was embarrassed to take him out and become that "mom" the Lord spoke to me.
He was different than anyone else and they enjoyed it and in response he interacted with some of the people at lunch. He brought a smile to many. How come we worry so much about looking and being like everyone else that we are ashamed to look and act different?
God calls us to be different and set apart from the rest of the world. I often admit I don't want to be because it is more comfortable not to be.. Or is it? Are you tired of trying to keep up with the rest of the world? God created all of us different and unique in our qualities so lets stop trying to be like everyone else and be ourselves... Let us love who we are and enjoy what God made us to be....
Had Noah not wore his costume he would have been just another toddler out to lunch with his mommy. But the fact that he was different allowed him to stand out in the crowd. Because he did he was able to show off his personality and be a light to those around.....
Praying to be different!
Mon
Monday, May 3, 2010
Faith that Heals!
So often we pray to God as if He was santa claus or just a miracle giver. I was reading in the book of Matthew the other day and I am not sure why I never really noticed it before but I did that day. See as Jesus went around healing the sick there was one thing He was consistant in saying.. He said " Because of your faith you are healed... It is your faith that heals you.. Your faith has made you well."
So often we operate with the assumtion that in order to be healed or have a prayer answered we have to do nothing but simply ask. It takes two parties to make it work, you and Jesus. It takes you having faith which is a tall order sometimes and then the will of the Lord if it is time to answer prayer.
There is so much to faith than just having it. There comes trust, believing, discipline and obedience. I wish I could cover it all in this blog, truth is I cant. I am not feeling that well and I think that a short blog doesnt do justice. I am praying for a womens fellowship in May or June. For those who have been before, this is the once a month study we used to do. Please pray if the Lords will that he will confirm it to me and show me the right time.
In the meantime, examine where your faith is. Do you have faith that heals or can answer your prayers? Or are you giving the Lord your christmas wish list? I know at times it depends as you are being stretched but remember that God wants us to do our part to!
Praying for Faith that Heals....
Monica
So often we operate with the assumtion that in order to be healed or have a prayer answered we have to do nothing but simply ask. It takes two parties to make it work, you and Jesus. It takes you having faith which is a tall order sometimes and then the will of the Lord if it is time to answer prayer.
There is so much to faith than just having it. There comes trust, believing, discipline and obedience. I wish I could cover it all in this blog, truth is I cant. I am not feeling that well and I think that a short blog doesnt do justice. I am praying for a womens fellowship in May or June. For those who have been before, this is the once a month study we used to do. Please pray if the Lords will that he will confirm it to me and show me the right time.
In the meantime, examine where your faith is. Do you have faith that heals or can answer your prayers? Or are you giving the Lord your christmas wish list? I know at times it depends as you are being stretched but remember that God wants us to do our part to!
Praying for Faith that Heals....
Monica
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