A letter to my boys!

Today is mothers day and although it “technically” a day to celebrate mothers, I celebrate being a mother with a letter to my boys...

Noah Asher-

My precious boy, the day you were born my heart grew and touched places of it I never knew existed. I watch you grow and I am so proud of the lil boy that you are. You are so gifted and teach me so much on not only how to be a good mommy, but a good person. Your minister to me daily, with your encouragement... “Your a good cooker mommy, your a good parker daddy, mommy you are a great runner, or your ability to make me feel better when I am sick with a lil “ mommy I make you feel better” and hug me.

You are such a great big brother, a protector to him. Your affection to our family with the many kisses and hugs warms my heart. Your love to worship through song makes not only me happy, but I know Jesus is smiling to! Your big smile can light up a even the brightest of rooms. I am so proud of the little boy that you are, so well behaved, polite and generous! Thank you my son, thank you for showing me how to love more, play more, sing more and for sure DANCE more!

Caleb Joshua-

Oh poppa, when they placed you in my hearts for the first time my heart skipped a beat. I never knew there was room in my heart for another love. Watching you grow have been such a blessing. In the morning waking up and seeing you laying there smiling starts off my day right! You never cease to stop smiling and your joy ministers to me!

I cant tell you how much it touches my heart to watch your lil eyes set upon your brother. Him dancing around and you laughing or when he is next to you and you try to hug him. The brotherly love that you show to him and for each other is a answer to prayer that I am so thankful for. Baby, I cant tell you how precious it is to lay with you at nap time, while you have your little hand on my neck . Just watching you sleep thinking about the little boy that you will become! Thank you my son for teaching me how to smile more, love more and be more!

I want you both to know how much I love you.. I always tell your daddy that I love him “ alil less than Jesus” and I want you both to know that as well! As long as Jesus is first in my life I will know how to love you and how to raise you in his ways. I am not perfect and I will make mistakes. I am sure I have already. You probably will not agree with me on things and perhaps at times get upset. BUT I want you both to know that I love you, everything I do is for you. I want you both to grow up and go out into the world and not be a part of it but change it.

I want you to love people, touch people and do Gods business because that is what you were born to do! Being a mommy is hard, and there are times that I am afraid of the things in this world for you both. I want you to know that I trust Jesus, I have faith that as long as I love Him the way He loves you, I can have peace!

I am so excited to see the men that you both will be but until then I will enjoy watching you grow!

Love your #2 Fan (Jesus is your #1 fan, never forget it),

Mommy

" I can do all things..."

Running has never come easy to me. As I have shared in past blogs I was that chubby girl in gym class coming in last on the one mile. So when the desire to start to run popped in my head I thought it was satan trying to kill me.. No really!

Inspired by family who ran the LA marathon I signed up for my first 5k a month ago and started to train as some of you know. Well sunday was the day, the day I was to run! As I approached the starting line to line up I gotta tell you the nerves really got to me. I questioned why on a sunday I was getting the family up at 4am to run three miles.

As self doubt on my ability to run crept in a small voice reminded me that I was doing it for me, and more importantly for Him. As they counted us down and the crowd began to move and we picked up pace it got exciting.. It only took less than 5 minutes to hit my first wall! The pavement seemed alot harder and the first mile seemed ALOT longer.

After I hit the first mile, I slipped on my ipod and decided to have fun.. I wasnt competing for a prize ( or at least not yet) I wasn’t in a race! I was in a run.. And the only thing the Lord told me was to run it well....

I think I did pretty good, completed it in 34 minutes! It was alot faster than my training times. Even today I sit here and giving God glory that I accomplished my first run. I know that with Him all things are possible, even for this little chubby kid!!!!

“ I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” Phil 4:13