Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Late for the race


We searched up and down for the street. I cant imagine this is where the race starts, there are no people. "wait here, I'm going to go check" my hubby replies. As I am feeding Caleb cheerios, he runs back " hurry it started." I looked at my watch and it was 7:45am.

I started to run like I never ran before, see I remember the rules said that no one could start the marathon later than 7:40. But perhaps if I just made it there they would make the exception. I saw the starting line, and I was running as hard as I could but there was a problem. I was not moving, no matter how hard I was running, my legs were moving but my body wasn't. What the heck the starting line was so close yet I could not get to it. It was just as I was on the verge of tears, I woke up.

It was my dream last night. I have exactly 11 days till my half marathon. And as I said it before to some it is just 13.2 miles but to me it seems like a 100. To be honest it is starting to mentally trip me out. Ive trained but not the conventional way. I didn't join a team, I am a team of one. I didn't follow the training guideline, but I did the best I could with our schedules. I don't have a coach, but I have Jesus.

I have experienced, knee pain, ankle pain, toe pain and have struggled the last month with bad lower back pain!

By faith, prayers and with a purpose I am pressing on. I am doing it to remember Gracie, I am doing it so that Noah can have a long life, I am doing it for Elias so one day he can be on the field again playing with his team. I am doing it for Sarah, because she just had another round of chemo. I am doing it for you! Because I asked that you would pray if I ran and you did and still are (I hope).

I am doing it because I don't have a cure for cancer but I have legs that work. I am doing it because I have faith in my God that laboring will provide a good work. He knows my struggles, He knows my weakness. I thought I would have blogged more about my journey but as I trained I realized that this time was some personal intimate time with the Lord.

Running for me isn't physical, I know if my mind tells my body to do it, it will. I remember back to one of my first blogs, when I celebrated running longer than 4 minutes and today I can do mile after mile. It has been through the power of the Holy Spirit, prayers and the examples of strength for the ones I am running for.

I thank you for praying, the last few days I have felt them. I truly have, I have a ton of distractions with schedules, ministry etc. that I am feeling a bit overwhelmed but I am somehow find some calm in the midst.

Please don't stop praying for my friends. Operation Pledge Prayer shouldn't end the day I finish my 13.2 miles. Please continue to pray for my pals that are battling, and all the others that have this terrible disease.

Love you all,
Mon

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Cancer didn't win and it will never win, because being with the Father is winning!


A few days ago, before bed I was praying with my three year old. When we got done praying our conversation went like this:

Noah: Mommy we forgot to pray for Gracie, so that she feels better.
Me: Oh son Gracie isn't sick anymore
Noah: She feels better now mommy?
Me: Yes son she is better, she is healed no more sickies
Noah: Her mommy and daddy made her feel better mommy?
Me: Yes son her daddy, Jesus healed her.
Noah: Oh thank you Jesus!!!!.... Mommy we also forgot one more person.. spiderman boy!

Such innocence, yet so comforting to me. You see the other day when I found out that she passed I was sad, like really sad. I guess my prayers were selfish for her and her family. I never asked for her to be healed eternally, only for us all to see a miracle. I prayed that this 17 year old beautiful girl, would get up from her bed and walk. Would awake cancer free and hear the words of Jesus telling her that she had been healed. That one day she would be married, have kids and a wonderful life serving the Lord.

So it crushed me, but the innocence of a child and a teen has showed me how to truly rejoice and know that the will of the father was done. Noah taught me to give thanks to the Lord for he has healed her! After I heard the news, I was also a little upset, not with anyone but with cancer. That day I cried out to the Lord and told Him that I was tired of another losing the battle with cancer. I believe my words were like this " I hate cancer, it is from the pit of hell, I am sick of it."

Shortly after that I read a tweet of one of Gracie's good friends and she said this:

"Some may think the cancer won, but it didn't. It lost. I know this to be true because, the moment Gracie walked through those pearly white gates and into the arms of Jesus, she was healed forever. #TakeThatCancer" - Vanessa Contreras

I have been thinking alot about Gracie and her battle. I heard a message on Wednesday night that was Gods appointed time. It was in the book of Romans chapter 8 starting from verse 18-28. I was reminded that the sufferings of today are nothing for what awaits us in heaven. Gracie's smile may no longer be here on earth, but will be forever embedded in our hearts. Her legacy lives with her amazing strength and faith that she had in her " Last days." I believe that many will come to know the love of the father through her story.

I pray that in our last days that we to can live an extraordinary life, rejoicing in our circumstances, having unwavering faith and finishing well.. I thank my son for shows me how important it is to give thanks to Jesus always. I thank Vanessa for reminding me that Cancer didn't win and it will never win, because being with the Father is winning! I thank Gracie, although I never got the chance to really know you, you have touched my life.

You have taught me how to fight through the pain and never lose heart or faith. Please keep the Aroz family in your prayers, please keep Gracie's siblings, her aunts and everyone one else that love Gracie so much as well. Also for those of you that read this blog that are not on facebook below are the details of her memorial:

GRACIE AROZ MEMORIAL SERVICE will be held at Calvary Chapel Golden Springs Diamond Bar, CA. September 10th, 2011 at 6:00 pm. 22324 Golden Springs Drive, Diamond Bar, CA. 91765-2449. In lieu of flowers, a fund has been set by Calvary Chapel Montebello to aid defray expenses For more information, please call Calvary Chapel Montebello @ 323.724.8464

Thank you for your support.. I have only 5 weeks till my marathon, so please keep praying! Operation pledge prayer!
XOXOX
Mon