Sunday school, Lady Gaga and Stevie Wonder? Wha?

As I hit the door, the sound of his cry got to a much deeper place in his heart " mommy, I don't want to stay in class, mommy I'm tired, mommy..." Perhaps it was that his cousin was with us this morning, or he was tired from a late night slumber party and a rushed morning, but this morning my son did not want to stay in his Sunday school class.

Truth be told, he was verbalizing what my heart wanted to say. Father, I don't want to be at church, I'm tired, Lord..... Was my internal cry this morning. I slept on the couch last night so my nephew wasn't alone down stairs which got me no sleep. Woke up late, 20 minutes before we had to leave, got myself, three kids ready, and breakfast for the road in the car in 25 minutes flat. Now before I get mom of the year, here is the truth... my hair was wet, my makeup like lady gaga, breakfast was a tubeez (yogurt in a tube) and the boys hair look like Stevie Wonder did it. But the one thing that was most jacked up this morning was my attitude and heart.

I promised Noah after I took Caleb to class I'd come back. By the way Caleb decided to cry to ;( , ok feel sorry for me and lets move on. Ten minutes later, I went back to Noah's class and he was fine, helping the teacher and no longer crying. The teacher gave me the thumbs up, he was fine and go to service. I promised my boy I'd come back so I went into class and his smile melted my heart. It was the, the knew you'd come back and thank you mommy smile.

I stayed the whole class and I was so blessed! They didn't have any helpers this morning so "who knew" ;) I would be needed? I got to observe my son play, interact and serve. Even the bible study given by teacher George that was broken down to a 4 year level spoke to me. I totally enjoyed myself in this class, I cannot thank God enough for the gift that the teacher and his wife have with our kids. When class was over Noah walked over to me and in the cutest voice he said " thank you mommy, for coming and staying in my class with me, and helping me calm down because I was crying, your the best mommy ever."

Then in my heart, I said " thank you Abba for making me stay in this class with these kids , helping me change my heart through them and serving. Your the best daddy ever!"

Soccer with Jesus & Childlike faith

There is something about having an infant and toddler that allows me to understand two things: One the heart of Jesus, and two, childlike faith that the bible talks about.

The heart of a mother or father:

Lets talk about the heart of Jesus. Being a parent brings on a love that no one can explain. It is a love that is deeper and a bond that hits the innermost part of your heart.

The love that I have for my children is a unconditional love that no matter what they do wrong I will never abandon them. I will always believe in them, take care of them and because I love them I have to also discipline them. I hurt when they hurt, I take that back I hurt MORE when they hurt.

I always have their best interest at hand and I am their strongest advocate! I will never lead them down a beaten path and I promise to protect them. BUT I will also let them fall when they need to so, Jesus can pick them up. I will allow them to make tough choices so that they can receive the blessings that God has in store for them. And no matter how hard it will be, I am going to have to let fail so they can learn.

When I examine my heart and love for my kids, I understand God’s heart. Because I am His and He is mine. He loves me more and knows me more because He created me. I cannot even fathom that!

‘For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother's womb.

I will praise You, for I am fearfully [and] wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And [that] my soul knows very well.

My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, [And] skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.

Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When [as yet there were] none of them.

How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How great is the sum of them!’

Psalm 139:13-17

Childlike faith

You hear the old cliche “ oh to be a baby again to only have to worry about eating, sleeping and pooping.” I thought about that for a second. And truth be told, I doubt that Caleb worries about anything!

He is in total surrender to his mother. He doesn't worry about his next meal, because he knows that I will be nursing him soon. He doesn't worry about a dirty diaper because as soon as I smell it, its gone. He doesn't worry about what he will wear because as long as he is not cold or hot he is happy. He has total trust and faith in me that I am going to take care of him because I love him and show him that. A picture of total trust in the Father.

Noah, my prophet, preacher, worshiper and everything else in between. He plays with Jesus. Yup some have imaginary friends but my son plays with Jesus. The other day I told him stop kicking the soccer ball in the house and he said he was playing soccer with Jesus. He said “ come on Jesus” and ran around the house kicking his ball. A few seconds later I heard “ wow you are really good at this game Jesus.” :) He once told me that Jesus was sleeping in his room and I needed to leave out a blanket. He tells me that he has Jesus in his heart. At night he laughs in his sleep and I know it is Jesus! He sings worship songs at the top of his lungs when we are shopping not caring who is listen and doesn't hesitate to sing about Jesus! His prayers are Innocent and they are from the heart.

I will close with a story of the time we were at Costco. I saw a man who was homeless sitting at a table. I got Noah's had held him tight as we passed by. I looked for the farthest table to sit at. As we ate our pizza, I couldn't help but notice Noah smiling at this man. We asked him what he was smiling about and he leaned over and whispered “ Mommy that is Jesus.” I was so convicted he saw more than a homeless man he saw Jesus.

This is the childlike faith that Jesus talks about! I want to totally trust God like Caleb and play soccer with Jesus! And have the eyes of a child that sees Jesus in everything.

"Assuredly, I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God as a little child will by no means enter it."

Matthew 10:15

-Mon