Defeat= Retreat!

Oh my what a week.. I realized I haven't blogged this week.. It has been so super crazy and busy.. Here is what has happened.. I had to spring clean, there has been a neighborhood cat that is looking to mate so she or he has been prostituting up and down the street making a awful sound the last four nights and ALL night. We are awakened every few hours, and I even woke up one night thinking he was saying "mommy". If I had a cat I would throw it out there just to quiet her up! ill that was gross. So Noah managed to get play-doh stuck up his nose, decided this week that he doesn't want to take a day time nap. He has started to become more independent and wants to do more stuff himself but get frustrated when he cant. I have had a headache, a severe lower back pain, pinched nerve by my neck, and some knee pain. what the heck, how old am I? I have had so much food temptation this week I felt like a huge snack attack like every afternoon. Why oh, I know why because I was fasting a meal this week.. silly me, oh course I would have great temptations!

Ok and my fitness.. Due to lack of sleep I have not worked out all the days I normally do. Last night I was running and my ipod fell and flew across the garage like a missile. Oh and did I mentioned that I fell? Yup I tripped and fell down a few stairs. Oh but the best part is that today as I was making chicken soup, I splashed some juice on my tummy and I felt the burn penetrate down to the bone. Sal and I also managed to get irritated with each other over something totally random, but that was over and the worst part of it all. I am really disappointed in my lack of participation of watching the Olympic games. Oh man if I was contending for a medal, I would not even have made it to the finals! I am so sorry USA! Man I truly felt defeated this week!

Do you feel sorry for me yet? Well don't, because tomorrow I leave for my retreat! So now you are probably thinking " that is why you have had the week you had". Yup my friends anytime you prepare to go retreat with the Lord the enemy is there to attack to take you down and make you really work for that retreat.

I am excited, worried, anxious and everything in between! Excited that I will get to sit at the feet of the Lord and let him work on my heart. I am excited to finally hear one of my favorite speakers and blog writers speak. I am excited to see how the Lord will talk to my heart and show me what needs to be done. I am excited to get this alone time with him.

I am worried to.. I am worried that Noah will get all his meals! I am worried that he gets his diaper changed at least 3 times a day. I am worried that at the end of the night when he goes to bed he doesn't ask for mommy and I am not there. I am worried that my husband has enough strength and handle a toddler 24/7 alone. I am worried that as I go away to be with the Lord that the enemy will be at work with my family. I am worried because I am a mommy and wife and that is what we do!

I am anxious to see what new revelation God will give me. I am anxious to see what part of myself needs to die so that I can follow Him more. I am anxious to get rid of anything that is hindering me of my pursuit of FFF!

So my friends I am signing off till Sunday. I am sure I will have alot to share with you upon my return! If you have never been to a retreat I urge you to go, you never come back the same. It is a good time for you to get alone with God! In the busyness of this day its hard to see or hear from God sometimes and it is good to get away. As you can see by my week!

Have a great weekend,

Love you guys!

Mon