A lost resume brings revelation

I couldn't sleep the other night because I realized for some reason I wasn't sure if I had a copy of my resume.. So in the morning I searched my files that I had taken off my work laptop when I quit over 2 years ago, and no luck. Then I found a few usb cruisers and nope not there. If I wasn't so sick I would have went into the garage and searched the 6 boxes I have yet to clean out when I packed up my office...

Now this poses a problem if I dont have a hard copy in my desk files in those boxes I am not sure what I will do.. So you are probably wondering why I would be looking for a resume? Am I looking for a job? Nope, however I am from the school of business that unless you document something then it never happen. That is the first rule you learn in management..

So after my third night of tossing and turning I had to ask myself why in the world is this bothering me? And I realized the hard truth, at the end of the day, when my career ended all I have is that piece of paper. When I turned in my laptop, staff meetings, conference calls and a office, for baby bottles, diapers and a nursery my world changed and I have regrets.

It made me really reflect on how hard I worked for soooo many years to obtain that title, obtain that office, obtain that pay missing out of the more important things in life. I admit with shame that there are days when I realize I worked harder for att trying to please my director than in my home trying to please the Lord.

Don't get me wrong I loved my job and 90% of the time loved my company, and I met lifetime friends however I was in bondage to my job. It sucked the life out of me, I lived on my phone, lived on my laptop and lived in the office. In the blink of the eye it was gone. My desire changed, the Lord called me home and all I have left of that time of my life is a piece of paper. And maybe not even that!

I would lie to say that I am ok if I never find that resume but only for selfish reasons to celebrate my accomplishments that really mean nothing now. Perhaps you are working at a job that consumes most of your time. Or maybe you don't realize it does. I know I was there, my husband used to tell me but I was in denial.

Just remember that tomorrows never promised. People in your life may not be there tomorrow, and your job may not be there tomorrow. Don't have regrets, like I do, I thank God that he used my sons birth to pull me out to what is really important.... Life and those that are in it!

I will leave you with some advice a area manager gave me one time she said this "monica, at the end of the day this business will run without you, if you drop dead on the floor, this business will still run there will be someone climbing over you to take your position." This was harsh words but she got her point across loud and clear and she was only concerned over the time I was spending in the office....

Is this you? Who are you trying to please? This blog took a random turn but after all I am the one losing sleep over a resume so go figure... If this is you.. I pray for you. Seek God for wisdom on how he wants you to use your time. He never in tented this life to be spent trying to earn that dollar for things that will make it with us to eternity...


Praying for you, be blessed not stressed ( as Momma Tate used to say)
Love you guys!!
Mon