My Heart- My Son

If you ever wanted to know what my heart looks like, I will tell you.. He stands a little over 3 feet, has his daddy smile and his eyes are full of Joy, and he is probably wearing a “CARS” hat.

I never really pictured myself as a mom, I thought about it because that is the thing you do after you get married.. Come on you know, when you dating they say “when are you getting married?” then you get married and it is “when are you having kids?” then after your first it is “when are you having another one?” am I right? So the thought crossed my mind until it became reality on March 12, 2007.

Lets back up a minute, one day back in about November of 2006 I was in the mall and I for some reason had paid attention to the many kids that were there. It must have been the worse of the worse that day. I saw toddlers not obeying their parents to disrespectful teens using foul language with no consideration to those around them.

I remember driving home that day listening to worship and crying. I was so hurt for some reason with the youth of today. I remember crying out to the Lord “ Lord if you never give me child I am ok with it, what I cant be ok is one that will never follow you. If my children will not follow you then please close my womb and keep me barren..” I know right? Those kids that day scared me straight!

So when I found out I was pregnant, it was the night that sal left for Israel. That is a another story in itself.. But I want to talk about our son today. Noah has always been a little different than some kids I think from birth. It was confirmed that his name was Noah in a dream I had about a flood, Noah means “comforter” and Asher was given to daddy when he was reading the bible one day. Asher means “blessed one” or “smiling one” and that he lives up to.

He came into the world with a swollen kidney, meconiun in the sac at birth, the umbilical cord around his neck during labor, a dropping heartbeat, Jaundice and a small hole in his heart. A little testing of our faith for sure for me and my hubby but as we trusted in the Lord with His son and time he was healed of all things by his 7 month birthday!

Who is my son.....

He is the two year old that reminds mommy to pray when we are leaving in the car if I am in the hurry.

He is the two year old who prays for all his meals, even snacks.

He is a two year old who asks to go to the fire station to “pray for the guys” There are times we pray and only minutes later they are called out.

He is the two year old who will tell you that he is reading “ Psalms, Numbers” when asked what are you reading in the bible.

He is a two year old who prayed for aunties car for two whole weeks and we found out later that for two weeks auntie felt like she was going to get in a accident.

He is a two year old who has been carrying a bible around since he was only months old.

He is a two year old who loves to worship and will raise his hands when he sings, and there are times at night he lifts my arms up to worship to.

He is a two year old who loves people and has always been social and brings smiles to peoples face. The other day we were at a funeral and he wanted to talk to this random lady, we didn't know her, but he was so set on talking to her. My husband took him over and he said “ I love you” to her and then left.

He is a two year old who has a heart for Jesus. During the week of Easter I read him a Easter bible, and it had cool animated pictures in it. When we got to the picture of Jesus by the cross with torn clothes and some scuff marks on his face and body he said “NO NO NO Jesus” he tried to wipe the dirt off his face and when he saw the crown he said “ Off, momma off” he wanted the crown off Jesus.

Who is my son, he is a child after God’s heart. I am a better mommy because he continues to show me how to be a better Christian. Jesus loved children and I know why. The Scripture over Noah's bed on the wall says “let the little children come to me and do not forbid them, for of such is the kingdom of heaven.”- Matt 19:14

When I picked it I always thought that would be a good scripture for Noah, but as I have learned it speaks more to me. I am so thankful and honored that the Lord would choose me to be the mommy of this extraordinary kid. Ive said it before and I will again say it, that if I had the faith, the love, the joy that this kid has I would be a better person!

Thank you for letting me share my son with you!

Mon