It was no surprise that this Halloween Noah Asher wanted to be Captain America. About 8 months ago we bought him a captain America costume for a super hero party he was invited to. We paid about 75 bucks for the costume and the accessories, and let me tell you that he has gotten 750 dollars worth of usage out of it!
For weeks he has been telling me he wanted to use his costume and for weeks I have been telling him we are getting a new one. So last night there we were in the middle of the costume shop going back and forth why he "needed" a new one and he pleaded his case why he wanted to wear the old one.
And like Holifield being taken off guard with a bite to his ear by Tyson . There I was about to get side swiped with the parenting fail left jab!
MANY years of my life I struggled with what others thought of me. I struggled with me or my stuff not being good enough in the material sense. Although, I have made tremendous improvement in this area, there is still the old man that seeps through all to often. We have vowed to instill in our kids what we have is sufficient, not wanting more, not needing what we cant afford and being confident in who we are.
There in the store he said in the most innocent voice " mommy I dont need a new costume I just want to be the Captain America I have at home. Why do I need another one?" And there it was in my face exposed. My insecurities trying to be passed off to my son. He could never be so right. And if I could have been honest to him my answer would have been this. Son, you dont need a new costume, the old one you have is perfectly fine, looks good and still fits. But you see mommy is concerned with other moms would think about you not getting a new costume, when they have all gotten their kids new costumes. Mommy is more worried about what you may look or not look like more than the fact that you are content in just being captain America.
Ugh, awful right? But as the Lord is my witness its the truth. I just looked at those big brown eyes, and with a few tears, I knelt down asking him to forgive me, thanking him for teaching me and praised him for being simple and content!
Its funny how this parenting thing works sometimes, at times I often wonder who is teaching who here? I love how God uses our kids to teach us the simple lessons that we "think" we are teaching to our kids. I thank God for Noah's heart to be content. I thank God for keeping me humble, by revealing the nasty in my heart.
Do you struggle in this area? If you do, I come along side of you in prayer. May we be content in who we are, what we wear and not worry about what others think. Trying not to be perfect but be perfect in who we are!
So Caleb will be Hulk and I decided to have fun and use what we have here and spend minimal on his costume and you know what he actually looks pretty cool! So here is to simple, and not trying to keep up with anyone else!
Much Love.. Avengers Assemble,
Moni
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