She was tired of the weight struggle. I remember thinking to myself, ....ME to, ME to.. At the time I was working for ATT and I had just dropped a grip of weight and I'm not sure how it happened but I became the head of the unofficial diet crew of our call center. We had a group of about 15-20 people who I would coach on how to lose weight, we had weekly meetings, a newsletter and for those really struggling I had one on one coaching sessions.
I remember thinking to myself how in the world did I get in this position, when I too didn't have it all figured out and still dont. The other day someone posted on Instagram a quote from Christine Caine and it went like this "God uses rescued people to rescue people." I realized it at the time that although I wasn't equipped on nutrition and working out, I knew the struggle, I knew what God can do and did and that is the encouragement she was looking for.
You know this afternoon, I sat there looking at my running shoes collecting dust and I remember our drive to San Diego many years ago. The Lord just whispered in my ear "Faith, Food, Fitness" I remember asking Him what does that mean?
I wasn't completely sure what it meant for a long time, but I was brought back to the time when I had the diet crew. I know God has called me to walk along side women who struggle in the areas that most of us struggle with, faith, food and fitness. I know that I am not called because of what I know but called because I know the struggle. And called because of who I know.. Jesus!
Today I had one of those moments when I had to ask myself if I am fully being obedient to what God has called me to do in these areas in my life. Sadly, I had to say No, once again yo yo weight loss, and laziness set in. I can mask it with, being busy serving the Lord, but at the end of the day, I know in my heart that I cannot fully serve God in the areas He has called me in with excuses.
It sucks, to start over.. But here is what I know.. I know that my weight issues go way deeper than what I am willing to share right now. Finding the root of it all has and allowing God to do healing is the step in the right direction. I can tell you that although my food and fitness has wavered, my faith in God has not.
Knowing this makes it easier to accomplish the other two, because we know that we can do ALL things through Him who gives us strength. I know God gave me the words in the most important order Faith-Food- Fitness. Weight loss sprinting will not sustain anyone, because its a marathon!
Speaking of which.. I signed up for the Long Beach in October. This one holds a special place as it was my first and I ran it for Gracie. Runners for Grace was birthed at mile 5 of this marathon. I am super excited that perhaps I can get a team to run this one.
I have to tell you that I was pretty bummed with missing the Pediatric run that our team normally takes part in but as I type I believe He had a great plan and perhaps its Long Beach. I mean what a run to do as a team. So I am praying God would provide me with a team and specifically some who have never ran one before. I would love to walk or run the journey. I promise you will never experience anything like crossing the finish line for the first time!
So as I close out this blog, I thank you for allowing me to share my heart and be real. I also would ask that if you remember me that you would pray as I embark training. And if you are also struggling and need someone to come along side of you, I am always available for prayer. I am not an expert but we can figure it out together! More to come on the journey!
#trustingGod #beingfaithful
Love you!
Moni
Phil 413
1 Cor 9:24-27
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