I do my best, God does the rest!

I told a friend the other day that I don't have it all together ,but I have a God who does. And for me that is all that matters!

Wow I had no idea how hard it would be to train for this half marathon. It seemed that finding time to run before I signed up was great but once I submitted that registration it went all down hill from there. Ok so I am being a little dramatic, but the truth be told, it has been tough. The last few weeks have been busy and trying to break away has been even tougher.

Although I am fully supported by my hubby, the guilty mom syndrome kicks in when I leave to run and the boys are just not wanting to cooperate with daddy. Walking out the door while Caleb is crying and Noah is running around the house, I feel bad leaving my husband who has been at work all day.

The other night, I was on the treadmill and doubt start to fuel my mind. What am I trying to prove, why did I sign up to do a run, why was I being selfish with time away from the family. All the whys and what was the purpose. I ran and it was a good run but went to bed feeling defeated. The next day I got on the treadmill and started to thinking about how I was training alone. Time and schedules doesn't permit me to join a group or set up a good running time with a friend.

I started to praying because I felt "disconnected" I felt like I was doing things all wrong. I felt like at the end of some days, I have just did enough to get through the day and nothing more. It was then that I realized that it was ok not to have it all together because God does.

Although I don't have a running group or buddy, I have Jesus. He is the best trainer anyone could have. I don't train like I should, I don't do alot of things the way I should, but I keep focus on the prize and continue to press on. I do my best and let God do the rest!

I have openly admitted that I am NOT a runner. I had NO desire to run but I know why God has placed this new desire within me. This journey of running has been revealing so much about myself to me. It is exposing, plucking, pruning and with every hill I climb and mile I run it is milestones for me.

"Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares [us], and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us."
Hebrews 12:1

The enemy doesn't want me to run. He doesn't want me to succeed. He does not want me healthy. Why because all glory goes to God. Remember I don't have it all together but my God does. Every thing that I accomplish I do because He is the driving force. I am weak but He is strong. If He can do this for me... He can do this for you!

Running to win~
Moni