God is love

God is love and love is all you need!

Todays blog is simple. We are so good with making things so complicated sometimes.

"And we have known and believed the love that God has for us.God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and Godin him."

1 John 4:16

Let us do everything in God and love!

Becoming a Runner

I started training the other day, got on the treadmill ran/walked a few miles and the next day the whole family woke up sick. Haven't ran since :( A set back yes, but praise God there is always tomorrow, if the Lord wills. And so I start my training all over tomorrow. Have to get ready for our 5k challenge I threw out there for May.

Have you prayed yet? Have you considered? Have you signed up yet? Well a week ago we got our first teammate. Susie joined "runners for grace" and will receive a gift card for being the first. So for motivation, I have asked a friend to guest blog for me about running. Perhaps Belinda's story can inspire you to join me on May 6th!

Becoming a Runner

The beginning is always difficult. In my mind, I have this image of a fit young girl in high school; who loves to run cross country. If this sixteen year old girl was asked to run three miles, she would say, “An easy three. No prob.” Reality is far different and we have to go through obstacles. Sometimes it is easier to over indulge, procrastinate, be lazy, make excuses, and live the daily grind which can lead to an unhealthy life.

With 40 quickly approaching, I prayed that I would change. I did not want to spend the rest of my life being unhealthy and all of the consequences that stem from it. My prayers were soon answered in the form of an invitation. A friend would insist that I participate in a local running club with him. I was intimidated at first because I felt I was in no shape to keep up with a group of runners. I cast that fear aside and showed up early Saturday morning because I knew, this was the instrument God was going to use to change my life. The running club’s plan was to run six miles that day since they were starting their training for the L.A. Marathon. At that moment, I had not set a goal for myself and did only what I thought, I was capable of handling, but I knew, I was taking my first steps.

Through the support of my friend and his tip for my steps in the beginning process of my lifestyle of running, he mentioned, “Don’t worry, start by running two minutes and walking one minute.” That sounded easy enough for me to do. Nope! I was wrong. I was in worse shape than I had thought. I was only able to run for one minute then walked to complete the two miles. I was disappointed that I couldn’t run, yet I felt a sense of hope that this was the beginning of my running journey. Although, there was no one cheering for me at the end of the two mile finish line – I took my first steps to becoming a runner. Was it hard? Yes, it was, but I did not quit.

Belinda's first marathon was the LA Marathon last year and she has not quit. Since then she has participated not only in other marathons but, half marathons, triathlon, and a mud run. She inspires me completely!

So with all that being said, I have a give away. WOOT WOOT! I won a free copy of "Run to Win" from Christine Caine. The book I am reading and LOVE! So here is all you have to do to enter to win. Leave a comment, letting me know how you are going to "run to win" in any areas of faith, food or fitness. I will randomly select a winner.

"Don't you realize that in a race everyone runs, but only one person gets the prize? So run to win! "1 Corin 9:24

Running to win,
Moni

Dare to be different!

There I sat on the floor with my youngest Caleb, stacking blocks. Handing them to him, "here Caleb, go big to small, stack them." He would take them out of my hand and as soon as they were two high, he would get his arm and "WAMM! like a wreaking crane they would come down. He laughed so hard he fell over.

As I tried to teach him fine motor skills, he was practicing his demolition skills. Yesterday we were finger painting. As Caleb walked over he dipped his finger and tasted it. "Not in your mouth" I said. He turned around and picked up Noahs captain America shield. As I was trying to teach him the arts, he wanted to practice his super hero skills.

That night I express my concern with my hubby on Calebs lack of interest on certain things. "Why does it bother you? he said. My answer was "because when Noah was that age, he was stacking them, and loved to paint." He replied with a "but he isn't Noah."

We teach our boys that they are marvelously and wonderfully made (psalm 139:14), that no two person is the same and we need to be set apart from the rest. Yet, I sometimes finding myself trying to make them, us.... me the same as everyone else. We have to stop trying to compare the two.

He is so right we are a people that compare ourselves. We compare kids, homes, jobs, money, everything and anything. This is dangerous, it leaves us selfish for more, ungrateful for what we have and expectations that can not be met.

Caleb is so unique is his personality it would be a disservice to God and us, for that matter trying to mold him into someone he is not! I have heard it said from my pastors children that he has taught them "Be who you is". May we find contentment in who we are!

Faith over Fears- Anxiety

Wikipedia says this of Anxiety

Anxiety (also called angst or worry) is a psychological and physiological state characterized by somatic, emotional, cognitive, and behavioral components.[2] It is the displeasing feeling of fear and concern. [3] The root meaning of the word anxiety is 'to vex or trouble'; in either presence or absence of psychological stress, anxiety can create feelings of fear, worry, uneasiness, and dread.[4] Anxiety is considered to be a normal reaction to a stressor. It may help an individual to deal with a demanding situation by prompting them to cope with it. When anxiety becomes excessive, it may fall under the classification of an anxiety disorder

Anxiety whether it be severe or not, everyone deals with some form of it. I have noticed over the years that anxiety has been more prevent than ever. Society has us striving for more, being more, buying more, having better, working harder, and if you are not busy you are not productive. The stresses of making more money, having more processions and living that American dream has left us tired!

We have anxiety because we are tired people! When we are tired and leave ourselves vulnerable, the enemy has a field day. God tells us in 2nd Corinthians 12:9 that He is sufficient for our needs. So if that is case why are we trying to do more or be more. For many years I struggled with anxiety and panic attacks. Not able to process the circumstances of death and trying to be more than I was put me in a dark place. Stress will throw you in a heap of trouble and a tailspin of disaster if you are not careful.

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Philipians 4:6-7

It took along time for me understand this scripture, to believe it, and most importantly to allow it to have presecne in my heart. Where is fear there is no faith. And when there is peace, anxiety doesn't have its place. Now as a stay at home mom, Id be lying if I said that I didn't still struggle with anxiety from time to time. Although stresses of getting ahead are no longer, the demands of being a mother and not jacking up my kids or family are always at the forefront. Being a mommy, means carrying the burdens of our children, husband and the rest of our family. When we become weak and weary and we forget that, He is sufficient for our needs is when we fall into that place of anxiety.

When I am tired I know that is when my mind is weak, and I open myself up to the enemy. Now if you are a mom, being tired and motherhood kinda go hand in hand. So what to do? Being in the word daily, in worship and staying prayed up prepares us for that battle. And guess what the battle belongs to the Lord! When I surrender myself to the Lord with EVERYTHING, I can be at rest and know that although I am uncertain what the outcome will be, the victory belongs to HIM!

I no longer suffer from anxiety disorder, however I know that if not careful, I can go back to that place. Do you have those moments of fear? Does anxiety have a place in your heart? If so I pray that the peace of God would fill your mind and heart today, because I know that place!

Praying and loving you all!
Moni

Crayon friends and starting over!

So friends guest blog week is over, and boy was I blessed with the stuff my pals came up with. I have to admit I am one blessed gal to have so many beautiful women in my life. My cup overflows with the joy that my friends bring me. Like a box of crayons, they are all different unique in their own kind, but all paint pretty colors to my heart. Thank you to all my friends who took time to write and you all that took the time to read it!

I do however have one more blog post that a friend wrote, but I am saving that for later this week. On a different note, I started to train for my first 5k of the year and we all got hit with this nasty virus! The boys and I have been sick for what will be a week tomorrow! I no longer can hear out of my right ear, and I can hear myself talk. Perhaps the Lord was showing me what my hubby has to listen to :/ poor guy!

And so day one starts over again this week. Although I have to tread lightly on my physical training as I get over this cold, my focus will be eating.. UGH! I know.. so hard huh? You know I tried to tell myself that I dont have a issue with food. I am not shoving whole pizzas, or five burgers down my throat but truth be told, I do have an issue. If I am unable to maintain a healthy life of eating and staying away from the foods that will tear apart my body, it is an issue.

As mentioned before I am reading "Run to Win" by christine caine, and she said something that touched or convicted my heart if you will.

"Christians have more reasons to stay fit than any gym junkie. Its not about how good we can make ourselves look by developing lots of muscles, it is abut being effective carriers of God giving Him the best shell possible to work with." Christine Caine (via Run to win)

I am realizing that I cannot keep with with my family, ministry and other obligations if my "shell" is not sustainable. We were busy from Friday night to literally Sunday night this weekend. Only being home to sleep and shower, today I woke up like a truck ran me over. It is foolish to pray for endurance and strength and then feed myself junk. There are many times that I find myself at this place, not sure why it is so hard to stick and I am going to find out. And soooo another journey begins..!


Will you come along? Are you tired of starting over? Do you want to truly make a lifestyle and not return back to the vomit? I know I do, I pray you do! So lets do it!

Praying for a life of transformation...
Moni

Friends Guest Blog Week-"Obedience" Myshell

Myshell and I met back in high school, she was my friends sister. Today I am proud to call her my friend and fellow labor in the Lord. Her heart for serving, young women and serving her daughter as a single parent blesses me bunches!



And Abraham said "My son, God will provide for Himself the Lamb for a burnt offering", So the two of them went together....Genesis 21:29


We see all through out the bible, God asking of his people to obey His voice even when the task may seem too difficult,outrageous or even impossible to bare.
Abraham had prayed and asked for a son, God had even promised Abraham a son, but when Issac was given to Abraham, God then in return asked Abraham to offer Issac up as a sacrifice. I'm sure Abraham thought how can that be Lord, I can only imagine what the journey must have been like for Abraham and Issac to make that long and exhausting trek to the holy Mt Moriah. Abraham thinking to himself, no Lord I can not do this, please is there any other way then to sacrifice my son, yet they still continued to press on Abraham obeying God and trusting Him the entire way. God was asking Abraham to obey His voice examining his heart, Abraham may have not understood God's heart that day but he listened to the voice of God and obeyed and through the obedience of Abraham. We know the scriptures say's, a ram was caught in the thicket and was used as a sacrifice that day.

I am also reminded of the walls of Jericho crashing down by the children of Israel. The Lord spoke to the mighty men of valor and priests and said to them march around the city gates for seven days once a day. On the seventh day march around seven times and the priests shall blow the rams horn making a great shout and the walls will fall flat. Well I am sure when the people of Israel first heard that they where thinking it would makes more sense just to crash though the city gates and take over the city. How is marching around the city walls and blowing a horn and shouting going to do anything? I'm sure to them it seemed quiet outrageous. But that was when obedience came into action, the children of Israel heard the word of the Lord and now had the choice to obey the word of the Lord and march around the city walls or crash through the gates on their own strengths. The children of Israel choose that day to listen and obey the voice of the living God and I'm sure as the priests and children of Israel where marching around the city gates, they where not just marching but they where praying every step they took. On the seventh day the horns where blown with a great yell and the walls of Jericho came crashing down.

As Jesus prayed in the garden of Gethsemane sweating blood praying for this cup to pass asking God the Father if there was any other way, Jesus too made a choice that day and said "Not My will be done, but YOUR Will be done" and what an amazing act of obedience we see in Jesus not only is He our teacher, but also the greatest example of how to be.

So was my walk with the Lord has brought me to the point in the road where I am now "FAITHWALKLING" choosing to completely listen and heed to the voice of God.
To pray and be still, to speak and to hear. I can't always be the one doing the talking, a relationship with the Lord is like any other friendship you must take the time to listen. Sure it is easy to to obey the Lord when it fits into our plan or is convenient for us, but will we still choose to obey when its difficult, outrageous, challenging or even to the point of uncomfortable?

That is when the true testing of obedience comes into play and making the decision to obey regardless the cost because in the end you will be at peace with God knowing that you have listened and obeyed!

I leave you with this, Be encouraged "For the eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth to show Himself strong on behalf of those whose heart is loyal to Him"....2 Chronicles 16:9


Myshell Leal was blessed to be born and raised in a loving Christian family, and the privilege of a Christian education. She went to church regularly, yet, like a moth drawn to the flame, she entered a world of lies, deception, drunkenness and more. After many years of trying to live in both worlds, Myshell found herself slipping further away from God. She cried out to her Savior and He reached down and brought her out of the grip of hell. From the time Myshell returned to the Lord with all her heart, her desire has been to help young girls dig deeper in their walk with Lord, and to strengthen themselves in the word of God. Myshell Leal serves on the Young Women’s Board at Calvary Chapel Golden Springs in Diamond Bar CA.

Friends Guest Blog Week-"Waiting" Brenda

Brenda and I met at work, we went from co-worker to good friends quickly. Today she talks about "waiting". Along side her for the waiting process of a child, I was amazed at her ability to be content, still find joy and never complained about her circumstances. She ministered to me in so many ways and is a blessing in my life!



Monica, left a message on my VM asking to be a guest on her blog and I thought, “Really? Me? I called her back and she gave me more details. She asked me to share on “waiting”. I want to share some times in my life when I waited for a miracle recovery for a friend, my loving husband and my beautiful baby boy.

Have you ever wondered why God doesn’t answer some prayers? I’ll admit it, I have and I have to constantly remind myself that I have to pray that His will be done, and not mine. Whether I was praying for a cure for a sick friend, a husband, or starting a new family; I had to patiently wait on God, I trust that He loves me and wants the best for me.

I was early in my walk with the Lord when I found out my best friend Claudia had cervical cancer. She was scared, but I told her everything will be okay….we’ll get through this together. I prayed that He let her live and help the doctors get his horrible cancer out of her body. I waited to hear the great news that everything was okay and we’d go back to doing girl things, but that day never came. Within months I saw a beautiful, full of life woman deteriorate to skin and bone. I waited, but that prayer was never answered, well at least not in a way that I could understand in this lifetime. Claudia died at the young age of 30. I do have peace in my heart to know that she is in His presence and no longer suffering. Little side note, if you have not had your yearly exam, please do. Claudia’s cancer could have been detected at an earlier stage and maybe still be around if she would have been consistent with her yearly exams.

There was another time in my life when I felt that I had waited for eternity…..meeting my handsome hubby. Coming from a Mexican family that believes that I should have been married with kids by age 25….I had long passed that deadline at 29….I had been through many broken hearts and was tired of trying to make relationships work. Friends were married and having children and I was always the third wheel. I asked, “when is it going to be my turn?” I had accepted the fact that I might be single for the rest of my life (I know what you’re thinking, I’m being dramatic!!) but that’s truly how I felt. Thank goodness for his perfect timing…. three weeks shy of my 30th birthday I said yes to a blind date and hello to my future husband Dan. I look back to my mid twenties and I clearly see how I wasn’t ready to be married to anyone. Thank you Lord for your bigger plan!!



Dan and I were married exactly 3 years later on the day we met. During our dating years we talked about how many kids we wanted, their names, and our desire to one day adopt a baby….you know that fun stuff you talk about when you know its a serious relationship. Little did we know we would be waiting for a while before our little family was formed? In five years we went through failed fertility treatments, an adoption that wasn’t meant to be. There were definitely times when I would break down and ask why do we have to wait? This is when my sister Mon would lend an ear, let me cry and allow me to realize that He only wants the best for his children. On May 18th 2010…my son’s birth mom gave us the greatest gift in the entire world…..our son Tyler. He’s been with us since he was 5 days old and I LOVE hearing the word, “mama”. I have a feeling that there is another little person out there, “waiting” for us to adopt him/her. I’m excited and nervous to start our journey on a second adoption!!

Whether you’re praying for a new house, new job or new life…..Please don’t lose hope, be patient and wait…..or maybe He is waiting for you :)

Guest blog, my best friend.. My husband " What every daddy wants every mommy to know"

Today's guest blog is my best friend... My husband! Kinda funny, all I gave him was "what every daddy wants mommy to know". I recently wrote a blog post that I haven't shared just yet that is entitled " what every daddy should know about mommy raising boys." Mine was kinda of... ok, it was comical. My hubby took a different approach, of course because that is just him. We are a balance and I love him for that!




What every Daddy wants every Mommy to know........

First of all, Daddy’s aren’t always going to understand what Mommy’s are going through throughout the day. Therefore we must be in regular communication. Not just talking but also hearing; not just hearing but also listening. Responding calmly with mutual respect, forgiving as quickly as confronting.
Second, Mommy’s forgive us if we don’t say it enough of just how important your role is. Abraham Lincoln was right: “No one is poor who had a godly mother.”
Parenthood, but especially motherhood, is a special, God-given ministry that God has given to all mothers. It is a calling of God, a marvelous opportunity to shape and turn lives toward God. Motherhood is one of the highest, most noble callings and one of the most important responsibilities in life. Almost nothing is more important. Mommy’s are the true Super-models!

Behind nearly every great man of God there was a godly mother. It was so with Moses, with Samuel, with Jesus, etc. Dr. G. Campbell Morgan, the well-known Bible expositor and preacher, had four sons and they all became preachers of the Word. One day at a family reunion, a friend asked one of the sons, "Which Morgan is the greatest preacher?" While the son looked at the father, he quickly replied, "mother!"

Lastly, when we (Daddy and Mommy) realize that having children isn’t about us, but it is rather about God, then the trials and sacrifices of parenting are easier to handle.  The issue is no longer how proud my children make me, but how faithful I’ve been to do what God has called me to do.
We must never forget that God has forgiven us, is patient with us, and endures our own failings to an even greater extent than we do for our own children. We must become what were praying for our children to become.  For example, If we want our son’s to be men of prayer, we must first become a daddy and mommy of prayer. Mommy’s, know that you are loved.........Blessings

Friends Guest Blog Week-"Turst" Carol

Today's guest is my friend Carol. We have been friends for about 7 years now. We met at our last church, and have been blessed with her and her family's friendship who have become part of our family. Today she is talking about trust!



Monica had asked me last week to guest post and I was so flattered and excited. I have been blogging on my own for over a year now and it is such a blessing to get to share my life with everyone, at times it can get challenging. Since you expose so much of yourself in such unpretentious words. When I decided to actually start a blog I did a lot of praying and I guess you can say "soul searching". I was worried if I didn't really have much to say, or the right words to say them. I even thought, "Why would anyone want to read about me?" Then Jesus spoke to my heart. He reminded me that I will not be on display. He will be. His love and His Grace that has been in my heart and my existence for almost seven years now.

All that being said, I’ll admit it that I have been kind of downhearted lately. Life is just moving by and I cannot seem to get a grasp of it. However, my faith is not based own conditions. I am choosing to trust God and His promises. I am choosing to trust God in helping me deal with my singleness. I am choosing to trust God to heal me from this ugly cough and cold that I have had for over a month now. I am choosing to trust God to guide me and give me His wisdom so I can get done with school and get my degree. I am choosing to trust God in this season He has me.

Life’s journeys have a way of bringing all of us to an occasional bitter pool. When Your browser may not support display of this image. we have something that puts us our life on hold or our everyday activities, we get (meaning me) get impatient, bitter and not a very fun person to be around. We stumble upon unpleasant experiences when we least expect it and they can have a way of rocking us and our faith to the very core. It can be sickness, major regrets and losses have that effect upon us. At a time when we should desire for sweet water to refresh our drained souls, it seems like all we have to draw from is bitter.

I know that at times it can be hard to just trust. To be still and let God be God. We are standing at a bitter pool and crying out to God, it seems like the transforming power of the cross is nowhere to be found. No matter how diligently we ask, seek and knock, the bread we so desperately want is still a rock and the fish we believe for still feels like a slimy snake. But Jesus promises us that the heavenly Father will give us what we long for if we trust. He will give us the desires of our hearts. In His time. And indeed, when we hold a stone long enough, it will eventually turn into bread, and that scary squirmy snake will turn out to really be a fish. (Matthew 7:7-11)

“Commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him, And He shall bring it to pass.” Psalm 37:5

“Therefore I will look to the Lord; I will wait for the God of my salvation; My God will hear me.” Micah 7:7

“He trusted in the Lord, let Him rescue Him; Let Him deliver Him, since He delights in Him.” Psalm 22:8

Friends Guest Blog Week- "Faith" Jackie

Jackie and I met two years ago at my first CCM retreat. I do not only consider her a mentor but a great friend. Her passion to train up the next generation of ladies blesses my heart. I cannot thank her enough for her wisdom, guidance and accountability and time that she has invested in my walk!



If we are faithless, He remains faithful; He cannot deny Himself. 2 Timothy 2:13

In my walk with the Lord, over the last 20yrs, I have had to experience different situations and obstacles where my faith has been tested and built up. I have learned to surrender my marriage to the Lord and trust that He would build it up. I‘ve taken steps of faith in homeschooling, for the last 14yrs. I have trusted the Lord with daughters, as they themselves have faced some difficulties in their own personal lives. I’ve also witnessed the Lord provide for numerous financial needs. And, I have experienced the Lord heal my body during a near death situation, when I delivered my last daughter.
Today, I can look back on my life and see Gods faithfulness in my life. Its what makes me confident in the Lord when I share about Him or in the times I come in to His presences during prayer. When I read in Genesis, in the beginning God was. I believe, with all my heart, that God is today the same God He was in the beginning. He is the same God who created the heavens and the earth. The God who met with Moses and did miracles before his people. The God who asked Noah to build an ark in the middle of a desert. The God who asked Abraham to leave his home for an unknown land and who gave him a son in his old age. The God who heard the cries of Hannah and blessed her with a son. The God who used a young shepherd boy to kill a giant, win wars, and become a king. The God who called twelve ordinary men to walk along aside His son and later be used to further the gospel.
Early in my walk with the Lord my faith wavered and it was during a women’s bible study we were asked to memorize Hebrews 11:6 And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.
Over and over I would read this scripture and wonder, am I pleasing God? Do I have faith in God like these men and women I read about in Hebrews 11? Over time God began to reveal Himself to me in ways I had never experienced before. He began to remind me of His character and greatness from the beginning of time and His faithfulness to me. As I looked over my lifetime even before I met the Lord, God had his hand upon me. It is because he allows me to experience His presence in my life that I can say my faith daily increases, as I watch life around me. As I watch my husband being used by the Lord. By watching my daughters grow up, serving and learning to depend on the Lord. As I will soon celebrate my youngest daughters 11th birthday, which I will be thanking the Lord for, for allowing me to be alive to witness another year of life for both of us.

Do I have faith as a mustard seed to be able to move mountains? No, but I am learning each day of His faithfulness. God doesn’t ask us to walk by faith because of what He shows us, but to be obedient to what He asks of us. He desires our obedience as we learn daily to trust in Him. Our God is faithful and each day as I seek Him He confirms He is faithful which increases my faith daily. My faith is stronger today because I have learned to obey Him before asking the Lord why or how, trying to figure out my future or controlling it. God has asked me to walk by faith and serve Him with a reverent fear. If I should become weary in my faith I will remember His faithfulness, which will allow me to continue to press on.

Friends guest post week- "Adversity" Melissa

Melissa and I met through my blog. She clicked over from one site to mine, from one comment to a lunch date, we immediately became friends. Im honored to know a gal like her and she pushes me to go deeper in my walk with Jesus! Today she is blogging on adversity.



An eternity passed and I was still standing at the door waiting to be buzzed in. In that stark room, with nose pressed against the wood and hand on the cold metal handle, I waited. My heart raced as flashbacks blurred in and out of my mind’s eye.

“He can fight this. He’s a fighter. Always has been.”

Like the time his business took a turn down uncertainty’s road.

Like the time he had to deal with his oldest daughter having brain surgery – twice.

Like the time he was betrayed by someone close to him.

Like the time his kidneys shut down had to be put on dialysis.

Like the time his heart refused the work the right way until he had surgery.

Like the time – the many times – we had been here. In a waiting room. Knowing all would be well because he’s a fighter.

My dad’s life was a vibrant Technicolor picture show of handling difficulties with strength and confidence. His example subtly made its way into the fibers of my being. When life’s challenges happened upon me and misfortune crept in, I emulated his survival skills - drive, ambition and determination.

The buzzer sounded and my fragmented thoughts focused back into reality. Adrenaline kicked in as I turned the door handle and ran past the white coats giving orders, past the huddles of strangers pensive in thought as decisions weighed heavy, past the woman with the clipboard jotting abbreviated notes that seemingly held the key to life, past a husband who held me up and tried to ease the heavy burden that settled like the Titanic on the floor of my heart.

And there was my fighter. Holding on. Holding to a rope that was unraveling thread by thread.

I rushed in, nestling my head in his neck. I wanted to scream from the rooftops – “FIGHT! YOU ARE A FIGHTER! YOU CAN BEAT THIS! YOU ARE STRONG!” – but all I could do was whisper.

Whisper the only Way to overcome all life’s struggles and mishaps and misfortunes.

Whisper the intense Truth, he never wanted to hear.

Whisper the Life right back into his soul so he could for once live abundantly.

“Cry out to Abba, Daddy! Cry out to Abba!”

Thirty years of knowing Jesus, studying scripture, memorizing the Word, exhorting others and this was the only answer that took over every thought and rolled off my lips.

“Jesus said when we call upon Him, he will in no way cast us out. Cry out to Abba, Dad!”

All along I thought the way through adversity and overcoming life’s challenges was to be strong. To take it one steady step at a time, keeping my head held high. To forge ahead focused and driven.

But the true way – the only way to overcome adversity is to surrender.

To cry out to Abba because He will in no way cast us out. He is the Way through every valley. He is the Truth in every situation. He is the Life when it seems we are all tapped out.

“The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still." Exodus 14:14

For the first time in my entire life, I saw the strength of my dad as he lay quiet and still, unable to speak, unable to move. The doctors had to push me away from praying in my father’s ear, but something unexpected happened. As the doctors checked his vitals, they were astounded.

“It’s a miracle. Come see.” The head doctor called in two more witnesses to be certain it was a reality.

“Before there were no signs of brain activity. He was gone. But now, look. He is showing brain activity.”

I stood by in amazement as I watched the miracle unfold before me. From death to life. From sickness to healing. From fighting to surrender. While physical signs showed promise, it was really the promise of life everlasting that I rejoiced in. When the doctors saw eyes responsive to light, I saw eyes responded to the Light of Truth.

A year and a half later after my father passed away, God reminds me of this {hard} truth as I face my own struggles as a wife, as a mother, as a sister, as a friend.

To win the battle, we must give up the fight. We must stop trying to do things in our own strength, in our own wisdom, in our own time because God has something amazing in store for us.

“But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you.” 1 Peter 5:10

The next time we face adversity, whether it’s having your bikes stolen, looking in your refrigerator only to find empty shelves, cleaning up the emotional wounds of a daughter hurt by a friend, being wrongly accused by a family member, finding a negative balance in your bank account, or losing your dad to cancer, we must bow in a posture of humility and pray. Pray to Abba who has given us every spiritual blessing and provides every need.

And then we must wait. Wait for God to calm our fears, wait to be renewed, wait for wisdom. Wait with the hope that He will provide the Way, speak the Truth and breathe Life into your situation.

The last day I saw my father alive, he was holding onto the cord of life. But he was really holding onto the cord of hope. In Hebrew, one of the words for hope is “ticvah” and it comes from the word cord or rope. When it seems like we are just holding on, we hold onto a cord that never breaks or unravels. It is the cord of Hope. “…and hope doesn't disappoint us, because God's love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us.” Romans 5:5

A sweet picture I stole from Melissa's blog of her and her dad! Cira 1979


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Friends Guest Blog Week-"Family" Maribel

As mentioned last week its friends guest blog week. Today we kick it off with Maribel and she is blogging about family. I met Maribel at my first CCM retreat a two years back, when I was blessed to be in the same room with her. Her gentle smile and love for her girls, and husband warms my heart.

Hi, my name is Maribel and I was asked to share a little something on the topic of “Family”. It’s funny because the first thing I thought when Monica asked me to write this is, “We are jacked up! Who wants to hear MY thoughts on family?” But then I realized that our story is a beautiful story because it is a story of God’s grace, mercy, and sacrifice at Calvary.

I want to share some things pertaining to my small family of 4. If I get into extended family we will be here until the second coming. I suppose it started with getting married. My husband and I did not have a fairytale courtship or honeymoon first year. In fact, I thought I made the biggest mistake in marrying this man. He was not a believer and I was obviously backslidden. I look back now and laugh because I used to think I was so much better than him because I was a “Christian” when I should have known better and not even been dating the dude! BUT GOD, doesn’t make mistakes. In my first year of marriage, I felt ashamed to even ask God to intervene in my life because I felt guilty for taking my eyes off of Him to begin with. I felt like I deserved the pain because I had walked away from my Lord. Until His mercy, grace, and death on the cross really, deeply, intimately made its way into my heart. While I knew God would forgive me, finally knowing Him intimately and believing in His promises allowed me to forgive myself.

Then Zoey was born. Her name is perfect because this child signified LIFE for me. God gave us this new life with this perfect little girl that I still believe I don’t deserve. I learned to further recognize the love a parent has for a child and realized that my Heavenly Father loved me and had a plan for me. I can either run from it, or submit to it. I chose to let the Lord lead my life because the decisions I was making without him were causing a lot of pain, and I didn’t want to cause pain on this little, perfect baby who I now got to call my own. The Lord also used Zoey to transform my husband. He suddenly became a different man. He no longer desired to have one foot in the world and he wholeheartedly took on his new responsibility as father with zeal. The first day he held Zoey in his arms I recognized again, that God doesn’t make mistakes. He had a plan for us, and part of it was to be together. We were a family now and we wanted the Lord in the center of it.

Two years later my spicy little Emma was born and just felt like our family was blessed. Two beautiful daughters, a wonderful husband, my amazing wife skills! We were good!

Then, about a year and half ago we were pregnant again! “Wow Lord, what a blessing! We need to move though because we have no space! There is so much to do! I am not even sick! What if we are getting our boy! Blah, blah, blah…” November 2010 we experienced our first miscarriage. It was early. 9 weeks. Not even showing. But it was a life. The bible says that before we were in our mother’s wombs, He knew us. This child was a life, and now is dead. I was devastated, but guess what? 6 weeks later we were pregnant again!

We saw a heartbeat at the first appointment. My belly grew. I felt so sick, which is a good sign. It probably means your body is doing what it’s supposed to. My belly grew fast, so I thought it was a boy for sure. I was afraid to get excited but couldn’t help imagining what our lives would be like with a crazy little boy around. I went to my 18 week appointment and found out there was no heartbeat. MY. HEART. BROKE. I couldn’t do a D&C this time; I had to deliver because of the baby’s size. I had to go through labor, feel contractions, and deliver a dead baby…boy. We named him Caleb and cried until we couldn’t cry anymore. The following months could also keep you here all night, but what I would really want to share is that God truly became my comfort. When Hector no longer understood my emotions, when people got back to their normal lives and I was stuck in a rut, when for the first time in my life I truly felt alone, God was my comfort. He never left me… In this world we will have tribulation, BUT be of good cheer, says the Lord. I also remembered that God does not make mistakes! I felt a peace about my loss. I will never know what the Lord spared me from. Kids have cancer or become wayward, and my son has a new perfect body in heaven and never knew the sin of this earth! And I will see him again!

5 months pass, and…you guessed it! I am pregnant again. I swore if this baby didn’t live, I was done trying forever. I also thought God wouldn’t allow me to go through that grief again. We drew closer to Him, we were obedient in homeschooling Zoey, we got all “Dave Ramsey” and got our finances in order. We even went to “A Weekend to Remember” and grew more as a couple than I ever imagined. The Lord did a wonderful work, and now we are getting our baby. This baby doesn’t take the place of the ones lost, but we are finally getting our 3rd baby so I can be done with childbearing and finally get my bathing suit bod!

3 weeks ago we lost another baby. I chose to deliver my 15 week old baby because I didn’t want him/her sucked out through a tube as I imagine is done during a D&C. I wanted to feel the labor and see my baby this time. We didn’t know the gender, but I saw the perfect little face and body and felt very defeated and for a second forgotten by God. I didn’t want to go back to feeling as depressed as I did the last time, and I was annoyed that no one knows what is causing this and yet everyone around me bombards me with that question repeatedly.

I went through the book of Luke recently and once again read about Jesus dying on the cross for me. How dare I think God doesn’t love me when he sent His only Son to die for me? I am human, but His love is greater than me. I am sad, but never more convinced that God is in control.

So, the topic was family and I chose to share our story because family doesn’t always turn out the way you would expect. Maybe some of you did marry your perfect soul mate, have 2.5 kids, a house with a white picket fence, and are debt free. That’s not me, but I am thankful. We are broken, but clinging to the cross like never before. Through all of the pain and disappointment, God has carried us and shown us grace and mercy. Family can consist of any one in your circle and God uses those people to teach you about yourself and the great love He has for you. They are always a blessing even when it may not feel like it. In my case, I am grateful for these recent moments when I have experienced immense love and compassion through my deepest heartache. This family didn’t start off as it should have, but God loved us so much he forgave us and is continuing to do a good work. That doesn’t mean everything will now be perfect, it just means that there is hope, and that hope does not ever disappoint.

Why we shouldn't Judge-Whitney Houston

Tonight, Mommy's I am specially talking to you. Ladies, as moms the choices we make in this life effect our children. God has in trusted us with his children to take the absolute care possible as they are on loan to us. As I read all the comments on Whitney Houston's death, I cant help but to hurt for a young lady that has lost her mom at a young age of 48.

Sure Whitney made choices, but she also had an addiction. We may not be smoking crack or have an addicted to alcohol, but we are all in some sort of addiction or sin that effects our children. Her sin is no greater than the mom who chooses to beat her child, or the mom who is addicted to food, or neglecting her childrens well being by partying, lying, gambling etc.

Sin kills, and bad company corrupts. Period. I realize the only difference from Whitney and my own is that her sin is exposed to the world. I am not on a platform for that. May God help us to make better choices in our lives. May it be our prayer that no matter whatever we do it will be well pleasing to the Lord. Because if it is, there is confidence that it is good for our children.

Losing a parent is tough, the hurt never leaves, time doesn't heal. Sure as time goes on it gets easier, but you never forget or never cease to feel the pain. Its been 10 years since I lost my dad, and there are days it feels like yesterday. BUT I live with the hope on of one day seeing my dad again when we are reunited in heaven.

May Bobbi Houston Brown also be filled with that hope and peace that only God can give.. May she also grow from this and know that a life of drugs and alcohol is not the way to, after all she is part of our future.

Greatest love of all video here!

A mommy hurting for another mommy's child..

Lets here it for the boys thursday- Caleb

Last Thursday I blogged about Asher for MOB Society's "Lets here it for the boys" Thursday.

So today it is ALL about our other little boy wonder. Caleb Joshua is a rambunctious little guy. He is 15 months of energy and smiles. He has a will that will not stop for anyone! I remember being seven months pregnant and telling my hubby, we are going to have our hands full. If what I am feeling in my tummy is any indication of his personality then we are in for so trouble!

Who is Caleb? He is the little guy who is ALWAYS smiling or laughing. He is the little boy who runs around the house screaming of excitement. He is the "David" and his brother is the "Jonathan." He LOVES his brother, first thing he says when he gets up from bed or nap is "brudther". He is a lost puppy when brother is not around. He is just so lovable you want to keep kissing him and squeezing him.

He is ALSO the little boy who has a mean grip when he doesn't want to let go of something. He is the boy who will scream to make sure you know what he wants. He is the determined little boy who will climb chairs, beds and anything else that seems to be a challenge. He is the little guy who likes to pok you in the eye to get a reaction and occasionally bites you on the shoulder because he is excited.

He is defiantly different from his brother, but unique and wonderfully made. I know that Lord has plans for this boy. He is bold, not afraid and strong willed for a reason and a purpose!

I finally hit 100!

As I pushed the stroller, with one child wearing a captain America mask, a cape, a shield, Thomas the train utility belt and a batman shirt, I wonder a few things.. First, what kind of super hero was this child. Next, how did I become that mom, who allows her child to go out in public this way. Then the last thought was how did I ever have 100 things to blog about?

Yup darn skippy.. Today my Blog turns 100.. Well not really, FFF is only 2 years old BUT today marks the 100th blog. So in between heavy breathing (uphill with a double stroller is torture), Captain America's singing under his mask, and the other little boy wonder exercising his lungs because he is strapped in, I thanked God and laughed.

Who am I Lord, that anyone would want to read anything I write. I was gently reminded that I am His, and He is mine. At least I can bank on one reader. hahaha

Because of this Blog I established an awesome friendship and forever grateful for putting Melissa in my life. Because of obedience to step out of my comfort zone to write, I have established this amazing fruitful friendship. I am excited to see what other work comes out of this blog! From friendships, to curing childhood cancer, nothing is impossible for my God.

Again thank you for inviting me into your home. For taking the time to read, I know that although there might not be comments on every post, there are people reading and I am so ok with that. To celebrate, I have invited some friends to guest blog for me, next week. I am so excited to see what they come up with.. I am sure some of them will be stepping out of their comfort zones, but this could be the beginning to their blogging journey.

Also I am adding a little testosterone to the blog and have asked my honey to blog it up for me to.. Woohoo see how that one goes..who knows if I approve perhaps I will give him a segment ;)

Here is to 100 more!!!
My heart loves you all to the moon and back.. No really I do!!!
Moni

My new read!

After this post, I am one blog away from being a 100! woohooo, it took along time getting here, but nevertheless I did. I feel like I should throw a party, with cake, candles, me, my blog and my faithful friends who are my readers.

Sooo with that said, we are going to celebrate! More to come on that note. So switching channels for a second, I have to tell you about the new book I am reading (part of my goals). It is called "Run to win" by Christine Caine. I got on the treadmill last night with the anticipation of warming up and reading abit. 45 minutes later, still walking I found myself unable to put the book down. I think that book was written exactly for me, and possibly you.

If I could afford it, I would buy a copy for all my friends! One thing I read that really hit home on the importance of maintaining a healthy body was this:

"Christians have more reasons to stay fit than any gym junkie. Its not about how good we can make ourselves look by developing lots of muscles, it is abut being effective carriers of God giving Him the best shell possible to work with."

I love how she calls our body the shell. I immediately thought of a turtle. Although the shell of a turtle provides excellent protection from many predators, it can also make the turtle vulnerable to health problems if it is not given good care in captivity.

We need to take care of our shell, the place where the Lord dwells. Christine goes on to say, how can we go out to do the Lords business when are bodies are failing. How would we have the stamina to go out, serve, teach, preach etc. if we are always tired and in failing health. I never saw it that way. what an eye opener!

The book isn't about running a physical marathon but more the spiritual one, but as you read they are so similar, you can apply to both. If you want to order the book it is less that 8.00! Go to Christine Caines website.

Running to win!
Moni

Milestones & Couch to 5k plan

This is the year for milestones.. This month, marks 10 year anniversary of my dads passing. A few post from now, I will hit 100 blog post finally. In October, the hubby and I will celebrate our 10 year anniversary and in November, Noah Asher will be 5!

I am looking forward to what the Lord has in store for us this year. I will be supporting the home and hubby, as he heads to winter camp in march, and Japan in July. With school, ministry, work, I am amazed at how he does it! In the middle of Noah starting school soon, watching grandma and starting some sort of mommy & me with Caleb, I will be training!

But before I jump to my 1/2 marathon, lets start off with the 5k. Some of you will be joining "runners for grace" in May so I wanted to post a "couch to 5k plan" that gets you running in nine weeks. Its a nine week program, and there are three workout plans to choose from. Be sure to warm up at least 5 minutes before and stretch really good.

Week	Workout 1	Workout 2	Workout 3
1	Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 60 seconds of jogging and 90 seconds of walking for a total of 20 minutes.	Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 60 seconds of jogging and 90 seconds of walking for a total of 20 minutes.	Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 60 seconds of jogging and 90 seconds of walking for a total of 20 minutes.
2	Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 90 seconds of jogging and two minutes of walking for a total of 20 minutes.	Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 90 seconds of jogging and two minutes of walking for a total of 20 minutes.	Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 90 seconds of jogging and two minutes of walking for a total of 20 minutes.
3	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then do two repetitions of the following: Jog 200 yards (or 90 seconds) Walk 200 yards (or 90 seconds) Jog 400 yards (or 3 minutes) Walk 400 yards (or three minutes)	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then do two repetitions of the following: Jog 200 yards (or 90 seconds) Walk 200 yards (or 90 seconds) Jog 400 yards (or 3 minutes) Walk 400 yards (or three minutes)	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then do two repetitions of the following: Jog 200 yards (or 90 seconds) Walk 200 yards (or 90 seconds) Jog 400 yards (or 3 minutes) Walk 400 yards (or three minutes)
4	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 2-1/2 minutes) Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 2-1/2 minutes) Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 2-1/2 minutes) Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)
5	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 3/4 mile (or 8 minutes) Walk 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Jog 3/4 mile (or 8 minutes)	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog two miles (or 20 minutes) with no walking.
6	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Jog 3/4 mile (or 8 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1 mile (or 10 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Jog 1 mile (or 10 minutes)	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2-1/4 miles (or 22 minutes) with no walking.
7	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.5 miles (or 25 minutes).	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.5 miles (or 25 minutes).	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.5 miles (or 25 minutes).
8	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.75 miles (or 28 minutes).	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.75 miles (or 28 minutes).	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.75 miles (or 28 minutes).
9	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 3 miles (or 30 minutes).	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 3 miles (or 30 minutes).	The final workout! Congratulations! Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 3 miles (or 30 minutes).

A few minutes each week

Each session should take about 20 or 30 minutes, three times a week. That just happens to be the same amount of moderate exercise recommended by numerous studies for optimum fitness. This program will get you fit. (Runners who do more than this amount are doing it for more than fitness, and before long you might find yourself doing the same as well).

Be sure to space out these three days throughout the week to give yourself a chance to rest and recover between efforts. And don't worry about how fast you're going. Running faster can wait until your bones are stronger and your body is fitter. For now focus on gradually increasing the time or distance you run.

Run for time, or run for distance

There are two ways to follow this program, to measure your runs by time or by distance. Either one works just as well, choose the option that seems easiest for you to keep track of. If you go with the distance option, and you are not using a track to measure the distances, just estimate. It's not important to have the distances absolutely exact.

Before setting out, make sure to precede each session with a five-minute warm up walk or jog. Be sure to stretch both before and after.


Information above was taken from CoolRunning.com . There is also another great site Active.com that I use for good training tips. As always I am also here to answer an novice questions that you might have, like what is the best drinking water, or what are good running songs, I got you covered ;)

Lets do this!!!
Moni

"Freeing Forgiveness"

The other day, after my friendship blog a friend asked that I add another quality to my friendship bank. In my one year reading, I see the picture of true forgiveness with Joesph and his brothers.

You see because of jealousy, Joseph was sold to be a slave by his own brothers. From a slave he became the kings right hand man. It was in his position that he was false accused by the kings wife of trying to pursue her sexually. Thrown in prison for years, he became the head manager. After several years, he was brought before the king restored as his right hand man, because of dream interpretation.

Famine caused Josephs brothers to Egypt for food. Not knowing that the hand that was about to feed them was their brother. Now imagine the fear of the brothers when they found out that their "lord" was the brother that they betrayed. The bible says that Joseph was overcome with emotion that he had to go into another room to cry.

When Joseph saw the fear in his brothers he said:

"But now, do not therefore be grieved or angry with yourselves because you sold me here; for God sent me before you to preserve life.
"For these two years the famine [has been] in the land, and [there are] still five years in which [there will be] neither plowing nor harvesting.
"And God sent me before you to preserve a posterity for you in the earth, and to save your lives by a great deliverance.
"So now [it was] not you [who] sent me here, but God; and He has made me a father to Pharaoh, and lord of all his house, and a ruler throughout all the land of Egypt. (Gen 45:5-8)

What a picture of true forgiveness. Joseph was not bitter, that he was sold, then accused and then imprisoned. He saw past his own circumstances, to see the greater work that God was doing in his and his brothers lives.

Forgiveness can be hard to do, and hard to ask for. There is something freeing that happens though when you finally get rid of the hurt and anger. Do you need to be forgiven? Ask for it, perhaps you feel you will be greeted with hostility, but like Joseph you may be greeted with a hug or a kiss. Do you need to forgive? Is pride keeping you back from being a Joseph?

Pray about it now, and give it to the Lord. Trust me there will be burdens lifted left and right if you will humble yourself and just forgive!

Why friendship is like a bank account

I am learning that friendship is like a bank account, in order for you to make a withdraw you need to first make deposits. It would be foolish for you to go to the bank and try pulling out money when you have not put any cash into your account.

Bible says that in order to have a friend you must first be friendly, as it says in Proverbs 18:24. In other words before you can partake in a friendship you must give to the friendship ( aka, deposit than withdraw). This past weekend I had the opportunity to dig deeper in regards to friendship, and I realized that I still have alot of learning and work to do.

In all relationships, it takes work. Fruitful relationships take more than an occasional call, a drive by hi, a "like" on your fb status or "I miss you" on your wall. There are deposits to be made. Lets talk about those deposits.

Investing time- Face it no one has the time, you gotta make the time! Set it and don't forget it!
Be Patient
Be Honest- There's a quote that says " I would rather be hurt by the truth, than be protected by a lie." That's truth right there!
Be Dependable- Can they count on you? Let your yes be yes and no be no ( ouch!)
Be Transparent- No fronts, No masks, straight up how you feel, how you do what you do and being real!
Be encouraging- There is so many discouraging things already in this world, use words to build each other up, not tear them down.
Be loyal- Remember that there are peaks and valleys in our own life, don't run for the hills when your friendship is in the valley!
Build Trust- Trust is the most important thing, don't lose it, and if you do, work hard to get it back.
Have understanding- How do you have understanding? You must communicate.truth.
Prayer- Pray with and for each other.
Love- Just love on each other!

Now as we are relating friendships to bank accounts, lets talk stocks. As you know investing in stocks cause risks. There are serious factors that would cause a stock to decline, the economy, bad business decision's etc. In friendship there are also some factors that could jeopardize your investment and the you are at risk of being hurt.

Here are a few, jealousy, pride, gossip, backbiting to name a few. These are toxic to any relationship and unfortunately they are easy to fall into if we are not careful.

I thought I knew all I needed to know about friendship back in high school, but the reality of it is that at the age of 36 I am still learning what it takes to be a good friend. I humbly admit that I fail. I can honestly say that my cup is running over with the ladies, and friends that the Lord has put in my life. He has blessed me abundantly and despite me being me, they love me anyway..

So to my friends, please be patient with me as I pursue being the friend God has desired me to be!
Moni

" A friend loves at all times" Proverbs 17:17