Last year I went through a book that explained about triggers. You know when something happens that triggers a moment or a time of significance in your life, good or bad.
Sometimes the trigger can be something as small as a scent or a sound or sometimes something subconscious you don't even know what it was that triggerd that memory.
The other night, I noticed my cell phone was dead and I needed to make a call. I went to the kitchen to use the red thing that's been sitting on the counter since we moved in. You know what it was a ......land line phone. As I lifted the receiver, my mind was triggered by the last time I used that thing , about two and half years ago to call 911 when Caleb had his seizure and laid lifeless in my husbands arm.
I placed the receiver back and my mind just went for it. It replayed that afternoon as if I hit the rewind on the dvr. And then it was paused on a conversation we had with the doctors. Caleb had a febrile seizure, and chances of it happening again before he turned five were a lot greater than him not. So from that day the number 5 was embedded in my mind.
Realizing that we are coming up on Caleb's fifth birthday, I just had one of those moments of reflection and gratitude mixed with emotions. When he turns five the chances of another febrile seizure drastically diminishes. On one hand that comforts me and on the other hand seen him mature into this little boy playing on the school yard makes me sad. I just feel like the last few years didn't come fast enough and then they came to quick.
I crawled into bed and just thought about the years with my Caleb Joshua, he is such a strong boy in character yet so sensitive. He was the one we ended up in the hospital with a few times, and when he gets sick we always feel a little more cautious , but it has helped us to rely and trust in the Lord.
Luckily for Caleb I was having this moment when I heard the jiggle of puppy's collar as Caleb tried to crawl into our bed at midnight. Instead of telling him it was to early to go back to his own bed I had him pull up a pillow and he got into a little snuggle trouble.
Here is what you should know about Caleb. He is quite the communicator, the other day he said he "loved his school" and that "it was really working out for him" in his own words.
He does not take no for an answer. He will plead his case to the END. He loves all things Mickey, always has his puppy by his side even if he is just coming downstairs and loves chocolate chip cookies. He loves school, is a prayer warrior and smothers his little sister. He looks up to his brother and wants to do EVERYTHING Noah does. He appears to be tough, but he is a softy. He still cuddles with his mommy and way over protective. And if you are sitting or laying next to him chances are he has his leg or arm on you. And he pays way to much attention to the girls for a five year old.
Our family is stronger, our house is louder, my heart feels fuller, and our love is deeper, because on this day five years ago the Lord allowed us to welcome Caleb Joshua to family. And I am grateful that two years ago the Lord had His hand upon you allowed us to spend more birthdays with you. Happy Birthday my baby boy, we love you a little less than Jesus, but surely
Love you forever, like you for always, as long as I'm living my baby you'll be.
Mommy
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